i swear to god, you give a boy an inch and he has ALWAYS got to go and try to run a whole fucking mile...

ok, now that i've vented.

last night was interesting.... don't want to say much else.  weird

lisa's moving back home right before november 7th when sacred heart opens in nola but i'm staying here.  i'm sorta happy about it, but in a way i'm ( Read more... )

so this has been a weekend chock full of going out and getting fucked up basically (which is cool i guess)

friday night i went to the keg and the pub with lauren and lisa and then ryan met us there.  we saw lots of people from new orleans, so that was fun to go back in time a little bit: bryan, paden, christian, etc.  we met paden's new friends ( Read more... )

I'm in a MUCH better mood now yayyy!!!!

had a few cigarettes, bought some brownie mix, etc.

life is good!

decided i'm definitely staying in lafayette until christmas.  which i'm happy about.  yayyyy for finally making a fucking decision!!!! lol

but... my new orleans folks....i miss the fuck out of you!!! but i will be back!!!!

love,
rais
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i was a FUCKING IDIOT... to expel from my life THE ONE PERSON who actually understood me, and appreciated me, and TRULY LOVED ME, and treated me better than anyone ever has before.  i was an idiot to force myself to lose the one person who could comfort me now.   but now, if i called.....the person would still try...... but i would be forced to ( Read more... )

so today was an absolutely fucking TERRIBLE day.

first of all....i was in second period history...and all of a sudden....the entire massive WEIGHT of hurricane katrina, which has (thank god) alluded me until now, HIT ME!!! all of a sudden i fucking feel the loss and the grief and it finally kicks in...why?  I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE!!!  IN THE MIDDLE ( Read more... )

and so, annie waits, annie waits, annie waits
for a call from a friend
the same...it's the same, was it always the same?
annie waits for the last time

the clock never stops, never stops, never waits
she's growing old, it's getting late
and so he forgot, he forgot...maybe not...
maybe he's been seriously hurt...would that be worse?

headlights crest the ( Read more... )

raisrais ohhh...interesting...it looks like i'm RED....which just so happens to be my favorite color... thank you LJ for affirming by choice of favorite color... fuck, i'm bored. obviously.

how can it be that ryan, who i've been good friends with for like 5 years and who has never once been angry at me in that entire time period, can get mad at me TWICE in THREE fucking days?  like am i really that bad of a friend?  why is my best friend constantly mad at me now?  maybe it's just part of living in the same city now... maybe we're just ( Read more... )

i almost had sex with ryan tonight.  oh wait, and the same thing almost happened last night.  i know now what i had always assumed when i moved to lafayette...that i am going to end up sleeping with someone who's been literally one of my top-5 best friends since i was like 14 years old.  am i ok with that?  god, i act like i don't even have an ( Read more... )

let's see...what happened today....oh ok, my car broke down on the fucking interstate!!! yes, i let lisa drive to school this morning and all of a sudden it feels like we have a flat tire. so we pull over. but its not a flat tire. oh, no. it's a totally fucking shredded beyond recognition tire. and its fucked up the bumper, and the back of the car ( Read more... )