But I think I have survived ( Read more... )

Last Friday, the 7th, my mom (Gran) was admitted to the hospital for chest pain. Saturday, I got the call to come down, since it wasn't clear how much longer we'd have her ( Read more... )

I wish I could show you, when you are lonely or in darkness, the astonishing Light of your own Being ( Read more... )

What do you do when you see your ex-husband on the ground, writhing in pain?

Shoot Him Again.

Friday night we went to church and did a Burning Bowl ceremony where we wrote down all we wanted to leave behind from last year and burned it. It was so powerful. I feel like I really have left alot behind. It was a rough weekend for me emotionally, I did alot of letting go, but I feel good today. Lighter, as it were ( Read more... )

I can remember a few years ago, during an "off time" with Mike. This was before we were married, before we lived together, before the car wreck that made him realize he loved me. I was working at Promus, don't think I was buds with Debin Jean yet. Anyway, I can distinctly remember driving home from work one night, crying into the phone to Danielle ( Read more... )

Ok kids, today I want to talk about friends. Why do I have friends? What do I get from them? What do I want from them? Why do I expect so much from some friends, and yet others I expect nothing of?

I have what I'll call "4ever" friends - Danielle, Debin Jean. I talk to ( Read more... )

There is this book I'm reading about gunslingers, and in the book, when the gunslinger enters "the zone" or whatever, a sense of cold calmness comes over him/her and everything seems to slow down. That place enables him to concentrate on the task and to tune out everything else. I felt that earlier. I think I have felt it before, too. But this ( Read more... )

I will know I am completely over JP when I can listen to Oceans by Pearl Jam and not cry ( Read more... )

Saturday I ask Mike when he is thinking of moving out ( Read more... )