there is so much i feel i'm holding inside of me. and what does it mean when someone says to you...i'm an asshole and i know we're going to accidently hook up a lot and there's nothing i'm going to do about it...i mean, i guess it means exactly what is said, but at the same time it all seems a little ridiculous. you cant accidently lhook up with ( Read more... )

i have "que sera sera" stuck in my head. it makes me think of spanish class. what a party that was, and we didnt even know it. its there because i didnt make the a boat and i have to take a lighter approach to life right now or else i run the risk of exploding...which is never good. i dont really feel like dealing with anything right now. if i ( Read more... )

i love how life keeps throwing me into eric, over and over and over again. i keep trying to just let it go. everyday it becomes more and more apparent that he does not, and possibly never will be able to, see me as anything more than a camper, or a friend. and although that sucks balls, it would be a lot easier to take if i werent constantly being ( Read more... )

my roommate is absoluetly out of control. but i don't even know that i care. to be perfectly honest, i think i'm just in need of a little male attention. being her roommate is like perpetually being the "good friend" and it's a little sucky. and i'm told that i don't want a random hookup and i'm told that i'm better than that...but who really is? ( Read more... )

so basically i am not really buckling down the way i should be...i dont know...i guess i'm doing what i need to do...i'm just not doing much in the way of work. it hasn't been an issue yet. i guess we'll see how this goes ( Read more... )

so i'm at college. i've been here for almost three days now and it's really wierd...i dont know, it feels like camp because classes haven't started yet. my roommate's chill and everyone seems friendly, if not truly chill. tomorrow i leave for my backpacking trip. i'm way psyched. it was getting kinda boring here. but i really can't wait. i keep ( Read more... )

so today i had a terrible fight with amanda in which i discovered, or rather she discovered to me, that she feels all i talk about is sam&kerry/tcs and that she is sick and tired of hearing about all of the fun that i have with them ( Read more... )

so i got my residence information. so citing ( Read more... )

so now i'm eighteen...wierd...but i think it'll be alright. my birthday was ridiculously fun and i thank amanda for her amazing plan. props. i can't wait to see the pictures ( Read more... )

so tomorrow i'll be eighteen. i felt the need to spell out the number, i dont know why but i am suddenly nauseous ( Read more... )