dude, what the hell. fuck some people.

i am fucking miserable. emotionally, physically, EVERYTHING. i am FUCKING m-i-s-e-r-a-b-l-e. i am soooo sick right now. my allergies are going crazy. they have been actually. for the past two or three months now EVERY single day my ears have been ringing. it drives me crazy. half the time i can't sleep at night because of it. i went to the doctor ( Read more... )

well i'm in texas and finally on the internet. so what's up?

i have a choice. finally. except i don't know if i should take it or not.

sleep would be nice. too bad i'm too scared.

i'm in tears, breaking down, and i just want someone to talk to. but in reality i don't have anyone.

i wish i could just make this all better.

i force my days to be about matt. but i don't want to do that anymore. i've done it for about 6 months now. when me and matt started getting closer. and i've been doing it EVERY day since.

i'm sorry to all my friends if i've even been shitty. don't say i haven't been. i make plans and i don't follow through on them, or i don't call, or just simple ( Read more... )

friends:FUCK YA'LL.

i'm staying neutral.