you wanna rip the system
you wanna break through
but you're so disconnected
    who gives a shit about you?
all your problems are not just
going away
but you're not changing
so keep on grinding your shit.

you've got so much indifference
there's more every day
and there's just so much building
you wanna rip
right through
   your
       lungs
but nothing's clinging
( Read more... )

I know a few people who have the terrible habit of whining about EVERYTHING in their life ( Read more... )

I sewed onto my skin
the pieces of humanity
that fell off in the street
from the lepers who would walk with me.
I thought it made me just like them -
human contact, human sin -
but it was just a mask of cells,
a running bill of my own hell.
 

Yesterday, I made my way down to St. Sabrina's and got my first "real" piercing - my inner conch.

Was I nervous?  Oh, you have no idea.  As soon as I picked up the phone to make the appointment the night before, I was nervous.  (I even said the wrong age when the receptionist asked me how old I was.)  The next morning, I was close to terrified.  As ( Read more... )

As of today, July 3rd, 2010, I have been in this country for ten years.
I would never have imagined it.  It feels weird, because it doesn't feel like anything.  To think that it has been a decade is strange - but more because it's a decade, not so much because it is a decade spent here.
Am I glad I'm here?  Of course.  Here, I discovered myself, met ( Read more... )

Forget the rational train of thought that I'm working on becoming the person that both of us want me to be and I'll eventually get there, someday.
As long as I think that way, that "eventually" will never come.
I will be that person from this point forward.  Actually, from last night forward.  I do not have insecurities.  And, if one happens to ( Read more... )

I had a dream where I was pregnant,
and, for the first time,
it was not a nightmare.
 

about running barefoot
and now
I really,
really,
really
want to start running.

In other news, haircut today!  I want something even shorter.
 

I just realized that, in less than a month, I will have spent one year on LJ ( Read more... )

take my strength...  please.

An excerpt from an interview with the band Cesium_137, courtesy of ReGen Magazine.

Is 'Keep Me' about fatherhood? How does being a father influence how you see the world?

Glendening: I had that melody pop in my head before my son went into surgery. It wouldn't leave me, and so it found its way into a song. Obviously ( Read more... )