I guess this time you're really leaving ( Read more... )

I'm not going to spend the rest of my life sitting here. i just want to get out of here. I want more of a challenge. All of you just sit here cause you don't care. i want to see if people are at all really different and unique or if we all have the same predilection to walk around with out heads up our asses. Where the most we have to talk about is ( Read more... )

i'm quitting smoking. i finished my last pack last night. so world be prepared for bitchy girl to appear. i had an encounter with a shed last night now my hand hurts i was in a really shitty mood last night and tonights not all that much better. but there's no point in talking about it cause it's not gonna change anything but i'm gonna go now

it's easier to hate then it is to love. with hate it's a one color theme. with hate you lack complication. with hate you lack the ability to feel. it hurts less to hate and it's such a familiar feeling. i cry less when i hate. it's my unspoken companion. it pulls all the hurt and pain away and turns it to anger which eventually gets spent on ( Read more... )

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so i've been very incredibly stupid today, and i hate myself for it, i wanted to pain inside to go away and it won't my arm hurts and so does my leg and my hand, hitting and punching and throwing things is not very smart. i hate chris i've decided that. i hate with an ever living passion that is more intense than it was when i loved him, which ( Read more... )

wow so yeah there is a lot going on since i last updated. well, i am no longer engaged which some of you know about, i was back together with mike for a while, then i became homeless... i almost wrote hopeless which i was that for a while too, but then i got a home and i'm working at the truckstop i love my job its awesome, i'm a cook and i'm good ( Read more... )

to anyone who is worried about me, stop, i'll be okay. i may become distant but it's because i have to. i may be going away for a while possible a long while, but i'll do it for how ever long i need to for me to be okay again. something i'm not sure i've ever been. i feel like i dont know myself. i feel like everything about me is a face i put on ( Read more... )

ok here goes, i know i've made some choices that some/most of my friends don't agree with, you all probably think i'm stupid and a glutton for punishment, and maybe you're right. but that's something i'm gonna have to figure out for myself, and if i get hurt physically or emotionally you dont have to worry about me coming crying back to you ( Read more... )

just when you think the world has turned its back on you if you look it's more likely that you turned your back on the world