girl suck. i have decided. but i still love lani. lots... and i think that even though i realize that a lot would have to be worked out for us i'm willing to try and communicate with her more and like. this time we've been broken up.. really made me realize something.. that she wasn't just my gf. she's a very good friend of mine. and i miss having ( Read more... )

so it's beeen a while. i don't even remember the last time i wrote. well ( Read more... )

 15 days... hold in there.... please.......

i can't lie... i never expected this semester to be like this... it's so hard. i have never cried so much in my life. not only that but nothing interest me... wrestlign bores me, i can't stand ppl long enough to actually hang out with anyone, and that includes talking to lani on the phone... and it's like. i love her. she is nothing i was looking ( Read more... )

so i'm at home watching a scary movie, resident evil extinction. my girlfriend just called so i'm talking to her on the phone too. lol i'm triple tasking. lol. so that's talent. so i have decided that i really do love lani. i'm not quite sure if i'm in love with her but i sure as hell do love her. we have like so little in common but that is the ( Read more... )

 ... so today is my month with lani :) that's the good news... i'm happy about that. on the other and... i supposedly raped my friend. despite the fact i didn't know she was drugged up, despite the fact that i told her it happened and could have never told her (which if i raped her would be the smart thing), despite that she told me she wanted to, ( Read more... )

 so, they [my work] held lani up a bit at work, and her mom assumed that she stayed longer to see me, despite the fact that i wasn't even there so she took her phone away and won't let her go on the computer and wants her to quit but so far she made her do that. so basically i don't know when i'm going to talk to her next, communicate with her next ( Read more... )

what if this is complete deja vous? idk, i feel so bad because i have sorta a little been blowing this chick off because she reminds me of danielle... it just started like this with danielle. we started talkig online na dhad a lot in common and she kissed me at our work party and i was blind then what if i am now. i know what if's are horrible but ( Read more... )

 dude... i want sex... or idk.. i want to cuddle and make out. and then. if i'm highly highly drunk, then sex. it sucks having all my best friends like having sex and stuff. i always hear about it. lol (or hear it. haha tam... lol) but, idk, just, i've ike never had.. a chick go down on me, i'm curious... but like shy. idk. and fuck relationships ( Read more... )

dude.. i want a gf.. not even.. i just want someone. to hold me. if even for a while... and tell me that there's nothing wrong with me. i need that so bad right now...