I fail a thousand times a day on my one most important purpose in this world, But every morning I wake with a renewed hope that I can be simply happy. I trust in my faith that I can achieve my greatest wish. All I want is to be happy and help those I touch to find their own joy. That is my purpose. To love unconditionally with no envy, hate, or ( Read more... )

A storm is coming this way. Hurricane Dennis. Funny that is my step-father's name. It is almost a C3 and it hasn't even hit the Gulf waters yet. Someone said on the news that it is the most perfectly formed eye they have ever seen. So it appears as if this will be worst than Ivan. I predict it will be a C5 when it arrives here and that it ( Read more... )

While my entire life has been a constant up and down hill (and not just walking). Running, falling, flying, and bleeding. This past week has been one of the harder ones yet. I am too emotional and I am trying to calm down. So if I said anything offensive to anyone at all. I apologize now. Now that Neverland is so lonely, it makes me want to ( Read more... )

A year ago today was a day I realized how happy I was. Sitting on a blanket on the grass downtown, looking up at the sky watching the fireworks show. Singing alone with the music. I look up and see my mother, (I miss you mom), looking infront and seeing the proof that the man holding me in his arms was serious about how much he cared for me. ( Read more... )

The greatest thing about life is that it is ever changing and with that change comes the evolving of the human mind and spirit. Unfortunately for some that evolving phase could include losing heart, faith, and closing out any emotion that can cause pain. But by doing so the person is closing out some of what makes life life. This happens on a ( Read more... )

So my life pretty much consist of some very intrinsic twists and turns. But I'm doing so much better now. I moved into a nice cottage-house, in a great neiborhood, with all my things. I am comfortable and content. Still working on the car thing, but mine is running so much better now that I'm not really in any hurry. All my bills are paid. My ( Read more... )

She will leave tomorrow, back to Brazil. Never to return. Will you miss her. Will you think of her fondly and remember the good times? Will anyone really care? Paradise, a land filled with fun and adventures. Neverland a place in my mind where anything is possible. Reality, a place I must grow up in. I do not want to grow up, to realize ( Read more... )

In all things I do, I do with all that I am. I have never really understood why people hold back so much of who they really are. Fear is not exactly a reason or excuse. I got the offer to work at the hospital but refused. I have something better in mind and I will not know for sure until next week. Cross your fingers for me please and thank ( Read more... )

So yeah the weekend before last was my birthday. And I ended up having a 3 day party at my mom's house. I had so many people in my house it was not funny. We had so much fun. My roommate bought me a cake that ended up on everyone's body parts. We got so drunk. So yeah Saturday this guy I was kind of checking out a while ago come to the party ( Read more... )

Life is pretty good at this point. I am surrounded by awesome new people I meet recently. Each individual as interesting as the other. My days are jam packed with things to do. I'm training my replacement at work and it happens to be Kelly (one of my good friends). This past Friday went to a keg party. And as I walked up Nikki wispers in my ( Read more... )