yeah..
i've been absent..
i forgot my password
and then the password to the e-mail i had listed ;]

joy!

i'll be catching up when i have time
;]

missed you all

i'm slacking big time.
my diet is out of control
i'm not exercising much if any
i dropped a medication for a number of reasons, so i'm only on Metformin at this time
and i have not started insulin yet

i suck at routine!
i suck at being diabetic.

i haven't even checked my levels in weeks

i don't have an excuse...
it is entirely my fault

i need to be yelled ( Read more... )

but happy

is that strange?

who cares.


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so an old life is wrapped in delicate paper and put away to memories
while a new one that will never be the same begins

never think for once i do not care, that can never be true.
i probably care more than i ever have

smile, be joyful, be free


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it's strange really... i felt i had made some head way with my perceptions, aided by a different perspective. i thought i was understood and that FINALLY i could start to let go
it was foolish of me, i see that now.
to me, it was never about the relationship that was over it was about a friendship of many years that was shaken to the foundations
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i live among the stars...
at least in my own head.

i am fascinated with the mythical, it's always there with me

i hide behind a jester's mask...
i'll be your fool and entertain you, but you may not ever see beneath the facade

i like long hippie type skirts and flat clunky shoes in neutral colors

bracelets excite me

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build castles in the sand
 put treasure in parchment boxes
 give affection to mannequins and colorful pictures
 listen to silent voices
 see blindly the path before
write hollow words of lace
they mean nothing

dream dreams of steel
(never get them off the ground)

you just can't get over, despite all your and other's efforts.

there are no words to say how grateful you are for.

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i realized today that i have a friend who goes out of her way to make me comfortable
she does this for me on a regular basis and i don't know how to ( Read more... )

i'm thinking seriously about quitting my job.
not the photography work, but the retail.
i find myself increasingly feeling cruddy and something in that building makes my allergies act up.
the work its self is fine, i enjoy it
but the people suck, management on down and the stress affects my blood sugar horribly and leaves me tired and un-energetic in ( Read more... )

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