My feelings are telling me that some things are being covered up and toned down as to not hurt my feelings. Hey, Peaches. . . if you want to hide something tell your little friend not to change her myspace name to match yours. Yeah. . . Corpse talking to Corpse Bride. . . Hmmm, nothing is going on there. Just a nice fun little joke. I hate not ( Read more... )

I hate where I am in life. Peaches hardly ever thinks of me, unless it's in passing and even then, I can always wait. I am forever waiting for him to keep his promises. Heaven forbid if one of his newer friends has to wait an hour for a phone call, even though he made plans with me today and completely blew them off. I really have no reason to say ( Read more... )

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Okay, so technically it's not my birthday yet, but it is only 3 days away. I'm not where I want to be. :: chuckles :: How many people say this day in and day out? I hate how I have to conduct myself at work, I hate that I have to tone down my personality and the way I look for a corperation. I enjoy what I do, though. The whole aspect of ( Read more... )

Day in and Day out I walk amongst the people with a cheerful smiling face, unbeknownst to them I am tumbling out of control as my life continues on. Feelings I once told myself I would never let taint my soul nearly fill me to the brim with thier sweet acidic whispers. To end it all would be easy, yet I am a masacist who clings to life while my ( Read more... )

I have been contemplating a lot of things lately. I suppose the thing I have been thinking about most is love. There are so many different kinds of love; So many different kind that I'm not going to post them all here. The thing I wonder most about is the kind between a man and woman. That special bond where if we are to believe the songs, tv ( Read more... )

Here I sit, crying my eyes out. My head is splitting from holding them in for so long. I couldn;t even fully pin point where the problem is. . . I can however offer a few ideas as of why my is shaking as I try to hold back the tears that wish to fall ( Read more... )

I told you I wasn't dead. It's been nice being able to get on Yahoo and talk with Kisho-ni. It's so nice to hear from a friend who seems to understand you, even if he is thousand of miles away. I've been feeling extremely lonely lately. A depression so deep in my bones, I ache. I have a hard time telling Joel this because he worries about me, but I ( Read more... )

As the days pass and it draws closer to Weds and finally seeing Phantom of the Opera on stage, since sitting down and watching High School Musical, since my own first time on the stage after reading a script. . . . My heart, soul, very being hums to the thrill of standing before everyone and playing something that is completely not yourself and yet ( Read more... )

I know I haven't really written much in this thing. To tell you the truth, nothing is really happening. Just the same old boring things that happen day in and day out. More of my time has been being called for since we started the Christmas season. Tis the season for rude, obnoxious, and generally snotty customers. Of course, I wouldn;t trade my ( Read more... )