so i think im at a sort of low point right now. im tired, aggravated, introverted, and snappish. i become fixated on outside objects for short periods of time to block out the loud blaring reality. example: when im painting im painting. im not thinking aboout how many times in the last week-an-ahalf ive gotten a lecture about grades or hanging out ( Read more... )

wow so my computers all fucked up but ill try to finish what i started last post. so anyway yea tha first time was really really uh fast. hahah but i did/dont care (shove that 23 sec(x)onds joke, lol) anyway so then it was almost kind of awkward afterwords, not intentionaly just i dunno... flash forward a few weeks, cera has the absolutely ( Read more... )

so here i am sitting in katies photography class, and im thinking about what has become of my life lately. its a tragic story actualy and one i am wholly responsible for. all that follows is in some way my fault. either directly or through a convoluted chain of aquantences and mishaps. i left off chronicling on the hell trip, from there things ( Read more... )

wow so i think i just survived the vacation from hell! so like kristina right she takes me to florida, and if you know kristina then you know already what it must have been like.... for those lucky enough not to know her it goes a little like this: she had a messed up young childhood, in rifle/ridgeway whichever ones near ouray, her mom's "pshycho ( Read more... )

im still so shocked.... i mean just totaly shocked. whatever i expected from josh; anger depression dissappointment sadness, watever, it wasnt forgiveness..... he forgave me! i just cant belive it, at the least i was sure that he'd never talk to me again. that hed storm away and rant and call me a soul-less bitch. that hed condem me to the world. ( Read more... )

...... oieh. my thinkers in a twist.... mostly cause i know (by my own definition what i did was in no way “wrong”) but everyone else thinks im moraly destitute. ( and all they heard was an abreviated version of my exploits.) i guess ive just raized myself to consider sex and its variations as nothing special, just another human need. i cant ( Read more... )

hey guys (or future self whose actualy more likely to reread this ( Read more... )

wow ok so like the last entry was from awhile back i just hadnt posted it. anyway i hate fuckin people yaknow? i mean its like (and im guilty too) theres nothing good to talk about only shit. cant talk about stuff thats worthwile, no no, better to talk about other people. cauuse their actions are so fucking important to evey facet of my own fucking ( Read more... )

wow so like homecomin week eh? its been absolurely daft. i mean im completely exhausted. emotionaly phsicaly metaforeicaly. ok and to start whos stupid idea was it to dress up for the stupid days, and which even stupider ass at cedaredge decided we should do "asian, latin, & arabian" days?! i mean WTF! how stupid can you (stuco)be! seriously am i ( Read more... )

so hey guys watsup? its all crazy here im like all wacked out im seriously like amost too tired to sit up but im too tired to sleep u kno? its 3 kinds of bad. but i guess its all just like accumulated stress and birthday exictement and stupid stupid drama.... like i mean i was stressed before my b-day all tests and homework out the wazu and such ( Read more... )