not that this matters
nor should you care
i wish the day would come
youll always be there
looking and wishing the same star
every nite
hopeing and saying the words
just right

You asked me to draw you a picture ( Read more... )

i see you scratched
i see you torn
ripped to no end
fucked in your dream
faced with no reality
crying out your pain
with no one to listen
searching for something
not sure what it is
listening for words
no one will speak
locked in a room
keys have been lost
four white walls
closing in so close
faster and faster
each new day

i dont know what you want me to be ( Read more... )

i sit in here ( Read more... )

left for dead before even born
beaten and bruised
just a baby
cut and torn
cut try to die
drunk rape fracktured
smack crack gunshot
blood pain, shes gone
broken down again
swallow pills make it go away
slit cut blood falls
heart torn in two
cry alone left for dead
no one even noticed she was sad...

i have thoughts that i should not ( Read more... )

not gonna make it
not gonna win
never fast enough
never smart enough
never good enough
for you
the look i get
when you know the rest
the way you make me feel
like im not the best
like im nothing at all
the way you show me
they all do better
the way you tell me
i am a failure

cant you see
what you do to me
cant you feel
the way i feel
the thoughts i think
of you and me
leave me breathless
i look to you
your eyes
your lips
your hips
oh god
the things i would do
if only allowed
when the time is right
to be so near
to hold you close
to hear your heart beat with mine
to feel the blood quick in your veins

i see you as i want to be
blood flowing free
running down my arm
staining all the fine white hairs
no more pain
only freedom
free to be me
free to think the thoughts i wish to think
missign you more and more
as time wares on
wishing and willing the memories to stop