I havent entered in awhile but yea i went to the ER room after homecoming after killing myself with too many RX drugs and alcohol. Then i also got in a car crash but no damage was done to my car only to the Audi that hit me. and i got caught racing on huntington twice. i got my lisence suspended i got it back about a month ago but cant drive ( Read more... )

with a single blade i could end this all ( Read more... )

i havent entered in a long time. well this weeks been fun. ive havent been home in like forever. but yea ive been out till like 5am all week. went to pasadena, palm springs, hemet, covina, and san bernardino.i got two reckless driving tickets which sucks. which can put me in "juvi." well thats really it im off to sleep since i havent all week. late

demented thoughts fill my head ( Read more... )

the thoughts exscaped my mind tonite and were portrayed in a dream. a dream of my ideal death. a dream that ive taken many attempts yet failed. for the first time in my life this isnt about girls. this is my guilt. maybe the pills will help or maybe ill be pulled down further. i feel like cancers eating my insides. diseased torn apart flesh. bones ( Read more... )

a shinning light emerging from the darkness ( Read more... )

There i stood with a beautiful sunset at my back. wishing shed come along and turn me around and watch it with me. i thought about her all day when she would tell me to call her id run out of the water and grab my fone. wat a fun day though. i spent like 9 or 10 hours on the beach in Carlsbad. having fun and being stupid. emily got a rash that we ( Read more... )

wow. the way she speaks. everything disappears. so amazing. so beautiful. so much shared. so much in common. so beautiful. so rite. makes me feel so understood. so mature. shes been there for so long but i never thought to talk to her. to think i dont even know her name ( Read more... )

theres a knot in my throat that chokes me everytime i breath ( Read more... )

i feel so weak and frail. i havent eaten anything since sunday nite. monday nite i cut my ankle so it says NP. and i cut my thigh and my stomach. i went totally crazy. i went into my medicine cabinet and looked for stuff to take. and i feel like i lost my love my life. and i kno somethings wrong i j/ cant figure out wat. j/ i wish i could die rite ( Read more... )