So I made the discovery yesterday that I am probably not going to pass this semester of nursing school... my feelings on this? No comment. I just can't help but wonder if I am driving myself away from nursing or if I really just don't enjoy it???? Not that I think anyone else would know I just don't have anyone to talk to about it because no one ( Read more... )

So I finished up clinical last week... and believe it or not I was sad, yes sad. Really I had so many patients there, and an instructor that just touched my heart in ways I can't even express. It was said by one of my classmates that it was if God strategically placed us all there so we could have this great experience and make it through... and I ( Read more... )

I keep trying to find a happy place in my life... yet every time I feel that I'm getting close... something comes along and ruins it. And that something 9/10 times is nursing school. I can't make up my mind whether or not I'm happy with nursing... I know that sounds stupid, but some days I love it... and then other days I'm like please kill me. ( Read more... )

So I'm thinking about starting to write again... this is a very big step because I haven't written anything in a very long time, but as of lately I have really missed it. I don't really know what I want to write about though... well that's just my food for thought.

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So I have managed to stay alive one more day in nursing school... yay. You can tell how enthusiastic that really makes me... can't you? I just feel like I've worked my ass off to get somewhere I don't want to be. Or is it where I want to be? I honestly do not know anymore. It's hard... and I think that a lot of the problem is me wanting to run away ( Read more... )

I was so relieved when I passed the first semester of nursing... but the more I sit here and think about it, the more I know it is still not what I want... and I am so miserable doing it. I want to study people or cultures or ancient artifacts... my heart is not in the here and now, I am intrigued by the things that took place thousands of years ( Read more... )

So I have been back from my trip now for a day... and I could not be happier. I seriously have not even put my phone on the charger yet because I am enjoying this solitude. I just realized how great it is to be by yourself and just relax... it is amazing... now if I could only get the house to myself it would be a dream come true. Tonight is D&D ( Read more... )

I am so excited to be going back to TN... it truly is where I am happiest in this world... rafting down the Hiawassee with the wind in my hair, the sun on my face, and the beautiful mountains and wildlife all around me... I couldn't ask for anything more. I can't wait!!! Plus I need this more than anything. My sanity is hanging by a string and that ( Read more... )

I am so tired ( Read more... )

I honestly am sitting here not even knowing how to say the things I want to say. But in the past few days I have been doing a lot of thinking about Devin and I, and was glad to find that in all the time I have been with him in my life I have never been happier than I am now. I can't explain what makes any of this different than the first time... ( Read more... )