Things I've Never Said
A few edits made to Avril Lavinge's song called Things I'll Never Say.

I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth ( Read more... )

Still reading all those old entires (there are A LOT of them) Although I'm kinda really pissed at myself cuz I have appologized and taken the blame for so many things when I didn't do a single fucking thing wrong. Sometimes it was someone else who made me feel like I needed to and that I was a horrible person, other times I felt pressure to make ( Read more... )

Decided randomly to go back and look at some very very old LJ's about John and I... It's incredible how different he is now from the guy I first met. And I doubt he realizes it cuz I didn't even totally comprehend it. It was just incredible to see the difference. I'm gonna think on it and write about it tonight... cuz I also saw some change in ( Read more... )

Had a great day at work. Got to see my brother. Got to talk to John. Only down side to the last was that near the end of the convo I asked him a question that I felt was really really important to get answered, however difficult or conflicting that answer may be. But right after I asked it he tells me his mom had gotten on and they were talking ( Read more... )

Me to Niff about John:
"I haven't missed anything so much since I first came here and missed home."

And as I wrote it I realized how true that really is.