This journal is for my unrational immediate thoughts, so that I can work through my issues, and find a way to deal. I find it is the most effectively theraputic way of dealing with my problems. My illness was caused by the holding in of feelings. Now, my symptoms are manifested when I hold back my usually unreasonable outlashings (which is what my ( Read more... )

HOW THE HELL ARE WE SUPPOSED TO BELIEVE IN A GOD
WHO SUPPOSEDLY "LOVES US" YET ALLOWS ALL THIS MISERY!?!?!
Lets face it, were all just like a big reality tv show for god to laugh at! Well, fuck you very much!

*Edit* Please, please, no more comments. Im done. Fin, Fine, Finito.

                           Nation Day of Silence: April 26

Day of Silence, is a national youth movement protesting the silence faced by lesbain, gay, bisexual, and transgendered people. Show your support for the GLBTA community by taking a vow of silence on April 26th from 8am to 6pm. Of course there are some circumstances during the day in which ( Read more... )

Do you think if I tell my teachers "everytime I sit up I feel the overwelming urge to slit my wrists" they will finally give me a fucking excused absense?

Im feeling very unstable right now...I dont really know who to talk to. Or what I would even say. Thats a first for me, and I think its whats scaring me the most.

Running into you like this without warning ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like my life is just one,

long,

slow,

painful

death.

im drowning

and then I come up for air

that

one

small

brief

glimpse of the horizon...

its the only thing that keeps me afloat.

Dont ever stop looking toward that horizon.

But no matter what

I'll always be there...

just in case.

Is maith an scáthán súil

Ok, so Im usually pretty open and understanding about most things...But Ive been having a really hard time with suicide jokes and references. Like some of the lj icons I look at in communities...the one I hate the most is "its down the block not across the street, kids, get it right" or a picture of a gun and "if youre going to do it, get it right ( Read more... )

Happy Third Anniversary Iraq!!

Here's to another year of unnessicary death and distruction. *squee*

The stupidity of the human race never ceases to surprise and sicken me. First of all, tonight I enjoyed a little herbal supplement with some friends, safely at home, is how I always roll. But then the entire Kelli's friend kept talking about walking around, going driving, drinking, doing excessive amounts, and just plain stupid shit. If youre ( Read more... )

Yes, I know, I am a crazy fuck. Yes, I, I know, am an emotional rollicoaster. Yes, I know, I am the sex. Yes, I know, you want me.