i got called "emaciated " and "gaunt" today

wtf?

i never seem to have time when i want to post a non depressing post. Things are better. I have to go eat soon but im trying. And im ok with trying.

im ok

ill be ok

ill try

walking out of 521 was the worst feeling ive felt in a while. we were getting into groups to finish the operating systems and noone wanted to be in my group. I havent felt that unwanted in years. Couple my intense frustration with my inability to do this stuff with noone wanting to work with me cause im a sucky piece of programming shit and i just ( Read more... )

Mae used to be MY thing with Liz. Before all this other shit. And now it just happened that shes going with pretty much everyone BUT me to their concert

ironic? maybe

sad? definitely

When she asked me about it i thought was just gonna be us two. What was i thinking?

promise a happier post later

adios mortalz

how scary i am. the big bad jeff who noone can talk to cause im sooooo scary. Im going as myself for halloween RUN KIDS RUN ( Read more... )

its 11:36 pm

and you are all alone. And you have been for 15 years

enjoy your "sleep"

:(

sometimes, an old friend can make things a little bit better....even if its just showing a maturity you never knew they possessed (after showing an immaturity unfortunately)

Johnb688 (9:49:49 PM): dude my bad about last night!  I have no idea why I did that.  I was just pretty drunk from the game and I don't know.  My fault though.  That was an @ ( Read more... )

i think i found it tonight

i tried. i did. i really did.

best of luck to liz and nigel.

oh look, reading more of lizs journal and look whos in all of her posts? why our good buddy dave. Go figure. And in every post hes "ill take care of you" and "im your friend liz" and "you are too good for jeff" and liz just eating it up ( Read more... )