devotion is such a beautiful thing. it is the ultimate form of love, such devotion that you could know that you will never be with this person but you stay by them and as long as they are happy you are too. that is the ultimate love. i once had it. i wish to have it again.
G-Mesa

have you ever had a moment where everything was crystal creal but glazed over by an impenatrable barrier, look dont touch? thats a little like what im feeling, just this kind of jellatanous goop that surrounding hte real problem, the real reason why im so numb. whether its from the fact that this is the first day in a long time that ive been ( Read more... )

first time in a while. but then this arguous task is no longer among my favorites. i cant say that there has been too much lately that i widh to write about. in fact i write this out of sheer bordom. there really is no reasoning behind my updating anymore, everyone who is in my life knows my life. i care not to pick fights here nor do i enjoy ( Read more... )

back from vacation. it was sooooo great, relaxing entertaining everything. i just sat on the beach and tanned for a good 2 hours one day, but the of course after affects of getting too much sun set in and i was off the water and beach and laid back in the house only hours after, staying there for the rest of the day. and a puzzle was made, of ( Read more... )

so now here it is. vacation. i will be gone for two weeks, and many of you wont know till im already gone. its but only 4 hours till i need to get up and leave adn yet here i am typing away. i will get a chance to check up on this while im gone. for some of you i will call, if you wish me too leave your number. Aimee sorry i didnt call but i ( Read more... )

went to boston today with Aimee, i must say that that was some really good fun right there. so we spent at least three hours one trains today which gave us tons of time to talk about the more important things in life. and of course a topic that always comes up in convesation, relationship, and all the stuff surounding them. so yes Melisa you ( Read more... )

it seems to me that alot of people have forgotten what one of the key elements of life is. being happy. as a dear friend of mine put is TakeMeAway1366: be happy..
TakeMeAway1366: whats life if you cant be happy with it
so thats exactly what im gonna do. laters.
G-Mesa

and here i am again at this lonely computer of mine. how many hours have i wasted typing away my misery and joy. but tonight i spout neither, and yet also i spout both. im not one to say good news bad news but mostly because its either all good or all bad, but of course either way i have a growing distest for that format. in all my many years ( Read more... )

it seems at these late hours of night i find myself thinking. what is it that i am suppsosed to do, why didnt i do that or what is wrong with this. then i just kindly remind myself that i regret nothing, that nothing could have been any different without changing what is right now, and i dont know about you guys but i am rather in like of what my ( Read more... )

i am a joke, it seems that a long time has turned into a normal time span between entries, forgive me for not being able to stand the test of temptation. it seems that one young girl had the power to pull back my attention. but alas i come to for her and her alone, too many lonely nights do i sit up and ponder what it is in that journal of hers, ( Read more... )