i feel so incredibly out of the loop...i miss everyone. i guess it takes two to maintain a friendship, and i probably haven't done my part, but i still feel left behind...it hurts. i want to help... is it awful that i feel hurt because people don't want my help?

i think i'm still in a funk. and i think i know why. i've realized that everything now is a waiting game. i know that nothing is going to happen for the rest of the semester. its just papers and basically getting though. and i guess thats okay, but its no fun if you know thats whats going to happen. the other day, someone asked my why i was ( Read more... )

i've recently come to the harsh realization of what my life really is and what kind of person i am. i complain way to much, i get angry at stupid things, i get upset over stupid things, and i let little things get to me. i am an angry person. i don't want to be angry anymore. i don't even think i'm really happy...why? i know what i'd like to ( Read more... )

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Republican."You're a complete liberal, utterly without a trace of Republicanism. Your strength is as the strength of ten because your heart is pure. (You hope.)"

Are You A Republican?

haha...big surprise there;)

haven't updated in a while, but things are going pretty damn good. things for australia are moving right along. i got approved for 7 of the 8 classes i signed up for. i'll only take 3 or 4, but they're all pretty sweet. i'd be happy with any of them. these are the 7 ( Read more... )

today i went to the fieldhouse and ran. it went really well...i'm not quite as out of shape as i thought i was. i ran a mile in between 8 and 9 minutes...which i thought wasn't too bad for me. when i was walking over there, i was stepping on all the dried up leaves that have fallen and they made that wonderful crunching noise. i love that noise ( Read more... )

no one follows when i leave, no one calls when i'm gone. no one notices....i want people to be open, i want people to talk. we get so closed off from eachother that nothing seems real at all. it makes me want to cry. i should take my own advice...or at least stop whining and complaining...why do i feel this way?

a list of my favorite things ( Read more... )

so, i saw united 93 last night. it was pretty intense. i cried...a lot. i haven't cried like that in a long long time. maybe it did me some good to actually think about something real. it was odd when we left. no one said a word. it makes sense, but i think thats why its different then a real movie...because it actually happened. those ( Read more... )

immersed in it once again...oh happy day
i hoped i wouldn't have to deal with this as much this year...

so it goes i guess...