he left on october 21. he e-mailed on december 23, but i didn't get it till december 27. i replied 5 times: got it perfect the fifth time. he never read the e-mail, but called me on january 1. i deleted the e-mail. i cried on january 1 a lot. we saw each other tonight. it was bad, but now i will move on. i don't know if i can cry anymore. i walked ( Read more... )

it's been more than a year now. my heart has been truly broken. i'm so very sad. i'm going to see a psyciatrist. i'm so sad

since st. valentine's day i haven't spent one night at home. that's a long time. i'm falling. it's really scary.

my birthday's in 15 days. i'm very excited.

where do i start?

princess is gone.  i guess that's good.  i feel a teeny, tiny bit sad for her, but i'm also very happy.

st. valentine's day was good.  i worked.  then i picked erik up at the airport.  we spent the whole afternoon and evening together.  i like him.

i'm wondering if i'm going to be crushed.  why do people have to hide their ( Read more... )

her name is andrea.  she calls herself princess.  i find this a little repulsive.

nyko, dan, and em all dislike her.  i think they'd all pick me over her.  i'm going to win.  i will, i will, i will.  and if i don't, i guess i'll learn.

this is going to take some time.  i wish it didn't have to, but she's got some kind of hook in him.  maybe it's ( Read more... )

i'm reading a book that's going to help me get rid of this girl a... i can't remember  her name right now.

i want to fuck this boy so bad, but he's seeing another girl right now.  i don't think that will work for me.  i'm not really about to share.  as i was watching the tele just now, i was thinking i should be really bad.  i spent the night at his house the other day.  i like his hands and hair.  good! i can't remember if i kissed him last night. grrr ( Read more... )

totally shaky. i'm not sure if it's because erik just called or because my blood sugar's low. i could check on the latter, but i don't really feal like doing that. wooooooooo fucking hooooooooooo!

it's absolutely ridiculous, but i have found that i imagine things in my life to be true tragedy. tragedy to me is losing your loved ones, but i still feel broken sometimes. maybe it's that i try to not let all that's happened in my life get too close. and on days like today, it just slips. i can't control it all the time.

i’ve been thinking ( Read more... )

i had the worst dreams last night.

dan was at em's.  i like him.  but i like his roommate even more.

i'm way tired.

my weekend's already started and i'm just gonna sleep!