watched love actually today.  not a good time to watch people falling in love.  oh well.

bleh. fuck this.
today was super shitty. i felt like puking straight stomach acid this morning, but didn't. then, i got a ticket in fucking lakeway. fuck lakeway cops. well, that particular one at least. i hope someone beats him up. boo!

october (maybe just before) 2003 - you and i were fun

today, january 2005 - you are fine.  i am, well, my heart is crippled.  well, i'm more crippled than my heart.  there's a hole in my chest.  it's gross.  it's currently decaying.  the outside of the hole is turning green.  i should get that checked out.

october (maybe just before) 2003 - i don ( Read more... )

i'm the greatest person you'll ever know.  i'm the most generous person i've ever met. wait, i take that back.  barrett is better than me, but other than him, i'm awesomest.  what the fuck is wrong with me?  urg! it must be that everyone else is fucking über dumb.

i lie. i'm über dumb.

i'm tired now.  work tomorrow.

why, why, why do i do it?

do you ever get on amazon.com and listen to music then realize that you used to have all those cds that you just listened to but now you  have none?

i do.

some person said: Fortuneately analysis is not the only way to resolve inner conflicts. Life itself still remains a very effective therapist. it's way hard to remember that.  i'm constatntly thinking and it's really annoying.  i think too much.  i gotta relax the brain muscle and flex the goddamn abdominals.  fuck all the stupid people problems i ( Read more... )

i was very excited to come back because i thought that things w/emily would be different.  they're going back to the same, i think. she complains too much.  damn.

i found out that my friend is sick.  she's been sick for 2 years and she's really sad.  i wish i could help her.  life is so shitty in that the people who are really good in the world ( Read more... )

nothing really has happened to me, but i've found out lots and lots of stuff that has happened to my friends.

back soon...

i hope you cut my hair today.  that would be really neat.  my mom's going to color it at home this week.  i'm going for black lowlights.  i bet you end up not doing it.  why does that shit happen to me?

i'm going home today.  i'll always think of my parents' house as home.  i wonder if that's wrong.  once my uncle rahul told me that the day he ( Read more... )

very different to say the least.

friday was lots of fun till em flipped out.  but even then, it was okay because i was drunk and high.

this is absolutely ridiculous, but i like you.  it makes me happy just to speak to you.  what sucks is we talk about the girl that you like.  why can't you like me again?  that could happen, right?  i know that ( Read more... )

whadda do, whadda do?

i want to go back to life being fun.  every day of it.  how do things change so rapidly?

i wrapped em's gift today.  it's beautiful.  i'd like to receive something so wonderful.  i'm always disappointed in my friends when it comes to giving.  nothing comes from the heart.  i do.  i give straight from the heart.  at least i ( Read more... )