Today sucked. Bad ( Read more... )

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It's beautiful. Beautifully shameful.
Up and down and all around. My life is everywhere.

fucked up.

those words mean so many things..so many things to me right now. they describe, they come through, they just ARE. i can't explain it properly, they really just ARE right now. so weird. so so weird how you turn to the things that make you mad and make them your own happiness.

fucked uppppp.

as if i could be consumed by such silliness...there is a me ( Read more... )

Feeling kind of melancholy tonight, I'm not sure why. Overall lately I've been happy...and that's saying a lot compared to what I've been feeling for the past year. In general I'm okay with the past few months. I made a lot of money and spent a lot of time doing things that I wanted to do, which included spending a lot of time by myself. But ( Read more... )

I never want to go home anymore ( Read more... )

Where do I go from here? Everything is hard again and I don't know how to deal with it. I don't know how to call energy forth; enough energy to manage the transitions that never seem to end. It's so draining to concentrate on two different worlds. I'm tired. I don't want to have good dreams and then wake up to find that they never really happened. ( Read more... )

I am so happy right now. And it's amazing.

:)

I have been working my ass off lately, and to tell you the truth, I am pretty impressed with myself. I have been working close to 40 hours a week and taking 17 credits this semester. But while I do like the feeling of accomplishment, I've been feeling a little bit burnt out lately. Just that always-tired feeling that doesn't go away even after a ( Read more... )

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us. -Alexander Graham BellI was reading some quotes tonight and came across this one; it's a little bit cliche but very true nonetheless. I have spent a lot of time in my life thinking about (aka ( Read more... )