I REALLY have to remember not to mix alcohols. Wine, liquor OR beer, not all three in the same night. Because it was so spaced out over so long a time, I didn't get wasted or even feel all that drunk at any point, but holy hangover batman, I'm feeling them all today ( Read more... )

I feel estranged from my past. Completely disconnected from the person I was before. The last year has involved so much more self sacrifice than I am used to. Maybe that's a good thing. It's all over now, I'm back to where I started, with no bank balance and less confidence. My parents haven't changed at all, and while their expectations of me are ( Read more... )

I fucking hate the TTC. Given how large and "world class" this city is supposed to be, its transit is probably the most dismal and mismanaged part of any system in the general region. It's disgusting. A trip that usually takes me 45minutes took me double that today, because I decided to take the route suggested to me by the fucking TTC's version of ( Read more... )

I always seem to have one kind of crisis or another on the go. And if I don't, there's always a conflict with my parents to fall back on, like a rebellious 15-year-old. I find it increasingly difficult to connect with the world outside of my head, which makes homework, class attendance, chores, social activities, even just waking. The real world ( Read more... )

If i were to season my food with arsenic, people would call me insane. I like the taste, or the way it makes me feel, I would protest, and the amount i use isn't enough to KILL me. Well, not for about another forty years, anyway. Still insane, no? Yes. So what is the difference between this and smoking? I mean, the success of cigarette companies ( Read more... )

Meme: "Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, thoughts on yaoi, favorite type of underwear ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in a really long time. I don't know that anyone actually reads this. I can't honestly say that I read all the entries on my friends' page on the rare occasions that I do check it ( Read more... )

im bored and avoiding having to cook, clean and decorate for christmas. 9 days left and we just got the tree up. still no decorations on it though. indian standard time, is all i have to say. in india, we would have been right on schedule doing all this crap now. (granted, the "christmas season" also continues a lot longer AFTER christmas than it ( Read more... )

I'm tired. I just got "released" from a mental crisis, and I'm tired as HELL. My biggest problem right now is there is no way to dig upward, and I'm too tired anyway. And so I sleep and that makes things worse because I'm further behind, and I'm too tired to run to catch up. The metaphor that is often used is that of falling, generally followed by ( Read more... )

so update on lists:

Things I want (contd)

The Arabian Nights (unabridged, specifically the Library Collector's Edition)
The Complete Works of Lewis Carroll (also specifically the Library Collector's Edition)
A gorgeous big map of the politcal boundaries of the world for my wall.
A punching bag. (mitts optional but preferred)