something is going on where my kids all want to talk at the same time. it's like the music is up really really loud all the time and there's a million things going on - and yet that's not what's happening. it's just that they're all asking me  questions, telling me something, trying to get my attention ( Read more... )

I'm tired, but I don't want to lay down. It's something about the bed, the smell in the house - meatloaf, and the fact that I haven't really moved around all that much today and even though I'm really tired, I'm judging my exhaustion.

the dryer broke ( Read more... )

On a Planet of Mothers

10/21/03

I’m an astronaut traveling through space searching for my mother. Lost. Quiet like a stone. I am so afraid. Like my moon went out and my sun is all cold.

By some chance in my dark search with those stars blurring by my ship, days, maybe months later- my ship with the wood bolts and old sea rocks and ( Read more... )

just dropping crumbs for my journey back ( Read more... )

Finding money for some people is easy ( Read more... )

staying married poem - summer 2003 - hb

being married is for warriors.

a battle we wage for closeness when at times it feels like it is too much of a struggle to face even ourselves -  never mind each other.

all this forgiveness and letting go and caring in the face of red fury for the way we are different from each other.

but ( Read more... )

that's weird. it said I posted here a week ago, but I swear it's been 5 years ( Read more... )

Hi! I don't have a lot to say but I wanted somewhere to say not much and still feel like I'm connecting. I have I want I am I do I think I feel I have I have I have not ( Read more... )

I'm tired. M isn't sleeping well for reasons of teething, I think. Though in the middle of the night when he's awake and crying or just rolling around on my face - what is it with kids and rolling around on the mother's face. It's hard. My head is a hard thing and I don't get why it feels good. I feel very trapped when he does this. S does it too. ( Read more... )