I am so awake right now. A cockroach came into our apartment crawled over me and onto Rowan. I woke up slapping my back repetitively because I swore I felt something on me. I looked at the baby, as I do when I wake up out of a sound sleep, and there it was frantically crawling all over her. Yes, I screamed (out of surprise). Yes, I whacked it off ( Read more... )

Everyone kept telling me to expect to feel a new kind of love. I knew I would automatically be in love with my child, of course, but I didn't know what that kind of love would feel like until she was in my arms. She has certainly melted my heart. She keeps me on my toes and makes me want to be a better person ( Read more... )

I’m getting pre-labor signs, but it’s all inconsistent. I had to make myself a ridiculous list of things to do, which I will never finish, but that was the point. Things to do, not necessary, or to be done quickly, just to do should I feel the need to have to do something instead of analyzing my body and re-reading passages ( Read more... )

My estimated due date is less than a month from today’s date. I found a midwife last minute, which took me a long time considering how close to the end we are. We’re officially having a home birth at our new apartment that looks like and feels like a small house and home. I had some horrible issues to deal with financially the last few days, but ( Read more... )

The baby gets the hiccups every day. They last for a while. Apparently this is what happens when the baby experiments with breathing! They told me the activity should be slowed down some, but either there is an increase, or I just feel more the of the movements because of the baby's size. I cannot believe in less than 2 months my due date will ( Read more... )

Where have my days gone?

I need more time. And soup. Let's not forget the soup!

Pictures of Isabella & Co.!


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Today's apartment search was incredibly exhausting. We saw 16 apartments. The apartment I liked best my husband did not like the neighborhood. Cherry and Hill. I liked the street space and that we had parking spaces and all utilities paid, which equals slightly less than what we pay now for all our utilities and rent. There were friendly ( Read more... )

This isn't the shortest or best composed of entries, but I wanted to type as much as I could before more bits and parts of the beautiful experience got lost somewhere in my mind, never to reach a conscious level again. I just got up from a 6 hour sleep since coming home from the most emotionally satisfying, powerful experience of my life, up until ( Read more... )

I know I can only control myself and depend on myself to do what needs to get done right now. While it may not be right or fair, it is what it is ( Read more... )