I just want an opportunity to sort of organize this year in psychic terms ( Read more... )

(Excerpted from February 17) "I hope I get into New World so I don't have to deal with these sort of social problems next year." I actually laughed out loud when I read that. It was in regards to Florin. I guess I don't have to deal with that sort of social problem, but there are so many others that it was comical nonetheless.

I live a little bit in secret.

And thus I update the LJ. One of the more permanent elements of my nature is ambivalence (it is alongside "intensity" and, though these 2 I'm not completely convinced of yet, "naivety" and "curiosity"). I feel so frustrated all the time. It's one of the most common emotions I feel, I would say. It isn't the sort of frustration I feel when I am ( Read more... )

Do I empathize the most with people who have no control because I feel like I have no control, because I'm afraid of losing control, or because I am simply the most inclined to empathize with those that seem to have no control over the circumstances they find themselves in? I hope for the last, but I know better. It's one or two. Not three.

Summer isn't properly coming to a close, but I've sort of decided that summer ends when I leave Madison. I move in two and a half weeks. It's drawing close! I've been very responsible about packing early. I've purged myself of nearly all of my belongings. At the moment I have 11 boxes, 6 of which I have mailed to my dad for storage (things I don't ( Read more... )

What I can't get over is the passage of time. Things keep changing and I keep living. I feel, more often than not, that my only anchor is myself and whatever I've bound to myself. It's just so strange to imagine all the things I've left behind and all the things that have left me behind. I know this sort of thing probably seems trite, but that's ( Read more... )

Today is my 4 year anniversary of horn playing!

Here are a few of the best compliments ever ( Read more... )

I did, in fact, lose my job at Starbucks. I spent most of the summer traveling and existing all across America. I spent June in Maryland/DC area for NOI (National Orchestral Institute), visited Jenna (my girlfriend of about 4 months) in Minneapolis, Northern Minnesota, and Chicago in early July, then went to Denver for the IHS (International Horn ( Read more... )