I haven't wrote in here, even though there was much to update for several days now. Today is almost a week since my dad had a massive heart attack that landed him in the emergency room. We thought it was serious and that he would come back. But he didn't. He was pronounced dead on December 31, 2011. Happy new year ( Read more... )

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um. update? i study. like. every minute of my life, it seems. in my free time, i apparently record the fact that i study ( Read more... )

IHOP is what we call our townhouse - International House of People. We have Patricia who is from Puerto Rico on our floor - "our" meaning, me and my roommates from last year - and on the floor below us are 2 japanese girls, 1 german girl, and 1 thai girl. it's so exciting and we just hung out with them! they're so much fun and cute! i'm so glad i'm ( Read more... )

i feel so much better today. i was supposed to talk to my parents but i dont think im quite ready yet. i do miss my home a lot but i really feel i do deserve more freedom (mentally). i think they physically give me enough freedom. i dont mind reporting to them various things. i dont mind telling people where i am or where im going to be because i ( Read more... )

im actually very lonely right now. its only 11 and i have to wait until 530 for justin to come home. i could talk to alice but i'm very upset about home and spilling out my emotions to her would be very awkward for me. i just wish my parents were more understanding. im not a little girl anymore and i wish they would stop treating me like i am one. ( Read more... )

today i went for another jog/walk along justins road and a trail. the trail is great...its wide open field, butterflies, bunnies, and flowers. i love it very much and it feels so good to be alone there. its like my own little place to just think and realize that life can be loved if you just sit still and let the earth move ( Read more... )

stp/filter show was good last night - i just wish i wasnt so paranoid by the lightening over the huge crowd of wet people (us) and so tired from the crashing after a can of monster. but the show was great. its funny that their first album came out when i was only 4. it was cool kind of seeing what my friends grew up to though. the music i grew up ( Read more... )

i cant help but feel stranded. i have great friends and a loving boyfriend. but after leaving home, it feels like im just alone. and i know it seems like a bad thing right now but it's really a good thing. i have to stand on my own two feet eventually, right? this was just sort of abrupt and im not sure how long it will last. im not afraid that i ( Read more... )

I think journals are healthy. And I think keeping up with this one would be a good idea ( Read more... )