I totally just remembered that I had this journal account ( Read more... )

My boyfriend just caught me masturbating to porn. He then proceded to send me a text message, "haha I caught you floggin' your log!" I feel so junior high right now. But whatever, he's just sad he couldn't stay and finish the job.

When I look at how my life is right now, it kinda feels like theres a void. I mean I just feel like theres something missing. I really don't know what though. I have amazing friends, my family loves me, and my job is taking care of me. Then there's john. He's the only thing in my life that could be better. However the void was there long before he ( Read more... )

So basically I've spent all day drunk. I have the day off due to some random lottery at my work. And really did anybody expect me to do anything else ( Read more... )

This weekend has been unbelievable. So much has happened in a short amount of time. I can't wait for all these feelings to go away, for all the little reminders to be gone. I'm really gonna enjoy my vacation to Medford with John next month. We need to get away ( Read more... )

Today is my first day of freedom. No more school for a whole two weeks! No work for a whole week, but fuck yeah for still getting paid! Thanks corporate america. Sometimes you really make me happy. Other things that have made me happy in the last week ( Read more... )

Here are some of my saved texts from john ( Read more... )

I'm really scared. I don't think I've been more scared before. I can't wait til friday to clear this up and find out for sure. I feel like crying.

So I've had the past two days off and completely spent them with john. It has been amazing. A whole week apart was crazy, considering we spend almost everyday with each other. His mom is staying at my house until she leaves for medford, and she doesn't know about him so we've been sneaking around and have made up a series of inside jokes. The whole ( Read more... )

This weekend actually didn't turn out to be so bad. I feel really refreshed and ready to take on the week. Possible reasons ( Read more... )