I haven't updated in several days, even though there's a lot going on. I have been contemplating, as of late, giving up on updating my journal. While I really enjoy my journal, I think I may have been a little too honest in it. My time at Livejournal has proved to upset at least two of my friends. And these aren't just random people in my friends ( Read more... )

I spoke to every one of my boys yesterday (Well, except Squad, sorry, babe!) It seemed a little over whelming... I was like "Boys, please! There's enough Jaymz to go around!" and I thought it was a little peculiar... then I realized it's probably not the first time that's occurred, I just happen to have a lot more boys lately ( Read more... )

Yes, tonight I learned the hard way that I have no earthly clue how to cook spaghetti squash. And I'm so bored without my car. :( I mean, that's not to say that if I HAD my car, I'd be doing anything better than I'm doing now.. but what I'm doing is sitting around watching TV and I hate that. Fucking TV. I'm trying to force myself to draw and that' ( Read more... )

If the lyrics on this album are so inspirational, then why am I so sad? This CD used to lift my spirits... now I can't even listen to it without being bummed out. Especially the song I'm listening to right now.

Cindi said "If you put in a two weeks notice to the casino, and then you just call out for two weeks, what's the point?" I guess I would just consider it a courtesy to get their paperwork in order. Yes, so I am supposed to work some event tonight... but I don't think I'm going to go... seriously, now that I have a full time job, I really don't need ( Read more... )

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So, yeah. I got the job. It's 40 hours a week plus over time doing the work I love. Soldering and building wires and boxes and the like. Call me crazy, but I'm a big dork and that shit fascinates me. I have to put in my two weeks notice at both of my jobs but I'll be working here and there at the new job on my days off ( Read more... )

Yeah, my friend made me feel pretty damn stupid last night for asking him to call me. Or to hang out with me for that matter. I mean... there was a time when he would call me almost every Wednesday and Sunday like clockwork just to see what I was doing. Now he doesn't call me EVER. And on the rare occassions that I MAKE him hang out with me, he ( Read more... )

I don't know what's come over me. Back in the days when I was sixty pounds heavier the thought "I'm fat" just never really crossed my mind... I mean, I didn't think I was NOT fat, but I guess it was something that just didn't concern me... but as of the last two weeks or so every time I see my reflection I'm like "Bleh... I'm fuckin' fat!" Why am I ( Read more... )

Now THERE'S a headline I'm waiting to see in the newspaper... Had to make my way out into the world today with my mother and sister... erghh. My mom said "You're looking pretty slim." Then pointed at my rack and said "I guess your boobs were the first thing to go." So I guess Kevin's remark some time back that I "have a long way to go before I'm ' ( Read more... )