Shonen Jump Championship Toronto was on Saturday, but I overslept for that. I didn't have a deck anyway... So I guess this puts the nail in my Yugioh career's coffin ( Read more... )

wow my life is really, really.. really dry. been working, but for i don't even know what. paychecks have been going toward... food. seriously ( Read more... )

didnt have to work this week at all, which sucked. didn't do anything while i was at home, just looked at my next year's courses or w/e and played pdc. pdc was terrible for the most part.

( 5 days worth of PDC reports you probably don't want to read )

thoughts.

looking back, i realized that it was good... it was really good, when i didn't overthink it. when there weren't any mind games and misunderstandings... like i understand that there's no use in remembering this at all, but like...just noticing that i've become quite literally, "the background music" and not an existence worth acknowledging ( Read more... )

i just realized that upon understanding who i am, there are absolutely no redeeming qualities to me. absolutely none ( Read more... )

i guess i'll just accept what i've become then.

if this is who i truly am on my own, then how can i possibly survive this life at all?

there is no way in hell I am getting past this question.

and thus i'll pray to whoever- whatever the fuck governs this existence... i'll get on my fucking knees and beg for the new year to bring me an answer. any

Friday, met with Joseph and Gerson. I tested very extensively with Joseph, going an overall 16-4 in games against his LADD build, which I am now confident would be a bye basically if I were to play anything like it on Saturday. Basically my matchups look like ( Read more... )

Now really, what excuses do I have left for not being what I want to be? The dust has pretty much settled, and now I see that I've lost a lot, in regards to friends and others, as well as myself as a productive person ( Read more... )