i don't want to feel like this again.

......i hope this is worth all this fucking heart ache.

it's hanging on your tongue.....
so afraid of me....but i'm dying to not be afraid of you anymore.

i always seem to meet people that are incapable of love. it makes me wonder if the entire world is incapable of love......

you think that i can't see what kind of man you are....if you are a man at all........well i will figure this one out on my own ( Read more... )

SUCKS!
I want to feel alive again! I NEED some change!!!!!

26th year...I'm waiting.

I am so bored in my life (besides my daughter of course) that I am focusing on...rather obsessing on things that are not happening....things that probably will never happen....because that part of what my life used to be like....those types of things that could happen to me...can't happen to the new me ( Read more... )

watching your baby so bad off hooked up to an iv is the worst thing ever. all i could think is what if this is something horrible...fatal,etc. all i could think is what if it is somehow my fault.......i just had a miscarriage and still couldn't even walk and here goes bowie so sick that she is admitted to the hospital for 4 days. good thing i ( Read more... )

started around 6pm and lasted untill around 3pm the next day. i had no pain.....just dizziness..which brought me to the ER when I almost blacked out ( Read more... )

every single night when bowie is asleep and no one is around.... my mind starts wondering, i cry....until the minute i go to bed.
i want my baby.....i don't want this to happen....i feel nothing right now except this pain for my lost child.
i just want my baby......i would give anything for him to be alright.

but it just doesn't work that way.

how do you say goodbye to someone that you never even got to say hello to ( Read more... )