but nothing is compaired to this ( Read more... )

so i was 13 weeks and 3 days with bowie the very first time we heard a heartbeat. i didn't have an ultrasound done untill 21 weeks to find out the sex.
wth did i get an ultrasound at 5 weeks,9 weeks and they tried to hear the heartbeat at 9 weeks.....if this is a false scare i'm going to be so upset.

well, after all the positive sides and baby cloths and started baby book....there is no baby. The baby must have died around 7 weeks. It isn't there anymore and now i'm going to have to misscarry the uterous insides/placenta/yolk sack,etc.....will feel like real labour/childbirth. yay. no heartbeat/no baby at 9 weeks u/s and it was measuring only 7 ( Read more... )

i don't know who i am anymore. i watch videos of me before i became a mommy or just think about my life than...and it's like i am the same person but at the same time a completely different person......hard to explain ( Read more... )

i don't ever think i'll feel anything like i did in the past or just when i was younger again ( Read more... )

reality is he is self centered, not into realistic things (as in the way life REALLY works ) and totally selfish.

yep.

what do you do when the person you have a kid with( and one on the way with ) wants nothing to do with you but is pretending he might because he wishes he could make himself....but you know he won't ( Read more... )

get myself into these fucking situations......a repeat is just crazy ( Read more... )

I am not a jealous person. But I'm starting to envy other people that have things going for them in their lives that makes things easier for them. People I know with money that don't have to struggle just to have a one bedroom apartment for their child and themselves. People that complain about having no money when they have plenty of money, a ( Read more... )

now its peanut butter.