This guy Daniel that I dated a while back gave me a call last night. He is in Memphis at St. Jude's Hospital getting a check-up. He had some tests run and they think there is cancer on his lungs. He had a CAT scan yesterday and he gets the results back today. I am really scared for him. He was calling me to ask me to pray for him. So if you read ( Read more... )

Tonight I went out to eat with my mom...we went to go get some yummy chinese. (We didn't bring any home Audra!!! HEHE) Before we left I got on to check my other horoscope. I ended up getting an email from my ex Matt that lives in South Carolina. There are just so many things about him that I love. Even though we have been pretty rocky lately, all ( Read more... )

I am known to be the type of person to question everything that happens in my life...good or bad. I know that I need to stop questioning things and just accept things which ever way they choose to go. I am sitting here watching "A Walk to Remember"...this is my very favorite movie. If you have never seen it...go out and rent it, or borrow it from ( Read more... )

I have finally just reached the point where I am fed up. I am so tired of thinking that I might have finally found a guy to treat me right, when in the end, they all just hurt me. I went to Nashville on Wednesday. I hated leaving Richard considering we had only been together for 3 weeks, but I knew that we needed the time apart. On Saturday night I ( Read more... )

I had to open this morning, which means that I had to be at work at 4:30. I barely went to sleep because Richard and I got into an arguement. I just laid awake thinking about how i didnt want to mess things up with him because he really is a wonderful guy. We have made up since and everything is better than ever. Tonight I went out to dinner with ( Read more... )

Matt and I are finished. Things just didnt work out for the better. I am sure that him and I will still be friends, but there is no romantic future for the two of us. I love him to death, there just isnt anyway for the two of us to be together. That is all good though because there is this guy Richard. I dont know what will happen between us. I am ( Read more... )

So much has been happening in my life lately. It just seems as though everything is spinning out of my control. Or like the world is moving and I am just sitting there letting it pass me by. So many changes have occured in just the last few weeks. Ever since the death of my friend Rachel (RIP May 11, 2002)...I have just been in deep thought about ( Read more... )

I had a wonderful weekend. Saturday morning at about 4, my phone rings...I pick it up and say hello...the voice on the other end says hey baby, and then my mom picks up so I hang up. Before I left to go to work that morning I looked on the caller ID...turns out it was Matt this guy that I have been talkin with or something. All I could think for ( Read more... )

I am so confused by my life right now. I have certainly realized something important these last few weeks though. I am 17 and I am more than likely not goin to find the love of my life right now, so I need to quit treating every guy as if they could be. More than anything I wish that I could find that right guy, but until he comes into my life I ( Read more... )

Alright so this weekend pretty much sucked, but I do however have some terrific news. My ex called me, and he wants me back. He cant believe that he ever let me go. It is so sweet. Its not that we ended roughly, we just didnt think we could do the distance thing, but we are going to give another shot. He really does mean alot to me. Somehow I can ( Read more... )