well you know what... i guess i was wrong...you know after talking to my dad today, i realize... yeah renee is trying to help, im sure of it, but the thing is, the being a child of an alcoholic IS an excuse...yeah growing up the choices i made have lead me to tha path i am, but they were my choices... and its like my dad and i discussed tonight, ( Read more... )

what to say... well as ive been forced to take a look inside myself, ive discovered many things about me i truly hate, and i just dont feel thats me. its taken me a long time to love myself and i do, but theres sooo much about me that i dont love anymore... ive changed so drastically ever since i was with aaron, my first ex-boyfriend... he ( Read more... )

I'm a Chevrolet Corvette!


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Your Birthdate: January 2
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okay well first off...for some reason, *The object of my affection*, which is a brilliant movie in my opinion... but it has been playing heaps lately and i swear i have seen it like 4 times in the last two weeks...lol... i dont mind though... its a great love story i think...i hate jennifer aniston in the movie especially her character, i just want ( Read more... )

so i will see renee (my therapist) tommorrow and i need to discuss my med issues with her until i can get another pyshciatrist, since ive decided i need to change mine... they dropped my lamictal doses down because of the the issue with my knee, and the lithium isnt doing anything if anything its making me more aggrivated and aggressive...so im ( Read more... )

well lately ive not been up to par, just with everything, but i know that i need to start getting my ass in gear... i have so much to do, im afraid im being overwhelmed...but im trying to stand back, and look at everything objectively...thus far it seems im doing well with it...im actually activley trying to fix myself to the point where im ( Read more... )

you know i hate going to the ER, because yet again i ended up there tonight and wasted about 5 hours of my life that i will never get back.. suprise suprise...so yeah, ive been having bad trouble with my knees and legs and having bad spasms in them and now i have two massive lumps in my groin area at the top of my legs... so i tell the doctor this ( Read more... )

well this is gonna be a long one i got heaps to talk about...so please bear with me...now its just about where to start...okay well we will start with me, i have made a lot of choices lately, wether they are right or wrong they are my choices and i made them when and how i made them according to the situation...this is all leading up to the next ( Read more... )

okay well, not been doing too much lately, the gym has been on hold, just for the fact that i have a pretty bad chest cold and can barely breath...i mean hell im so congested i get winded walkingfrom one end of the apartment to the other...lol...my sister is angry because i wont take her to the the gym, well she doesnt seem to understand that i ( Read more... )