I find it strange...for someone who trusts so little...when I finally put my faith in people it is so full and blind that I always get hurt...you would think that after 24 years I would learn to choose wisely.....

I'm not an idiot, I just play one in our relationship....but as you know, and are quite fond of telling me I'm just a "silly girl" so maybe I deserve everything I get.

I'm sorry that she broke your heart....but I'm even sorrier that I let you break mine

so i think i have finally figured out the whole "progression of one's self" thing the boy is always going on about....it has finally occured to me that i really do need to do things for me and not worry so much about everyone else...no im not going to go out of my way to hurt ppl or make their lives harder but if i can do something to better my own ( Read more... )

When the person you are with makes you feel completely untouchable and unwanted....yay good times

a friend got news yesterday that really shook his world...i mean in the absolute sort of way...because one minute he was happy and playfull and the next he got a phone call and he was sad and looked like he might cry....and when i asked he wanted to talk he said he couldnt talk about it....at least not with me....and i feel terrible because i hate ( Read more... )

So u gotta love that when people are on the spot and dont know what else to say or how to fix situations they usually are the most honest.....I was "kinda-semi" told everything i needed to know today by the boy....exactly what i "kinda-semi" am to him....its great...well no actually its not that great but at least now i know where the line is drawn ( Read more... )

So today i was very strange...i woke up in a wierd mood and i went from being clingy and affectionate to shut off and cold...i dont know whats wrong with me....and because of that i cant trust the vibes and feelings i am picking up off of others becuase it more then likely is just steming back to me somehow.....y am i this way???

So its halloween time and i have NO idea what i'm doing or where im going.....sitting in travis's room at the moment watching kevin smith stuff.....not his movies just like college tour stuff.....learning the origins of 'snoogins' lol ( Read more... )

when i ask you something and you make a bullshit answer...regardless of whether i drop it and allow you to make up with me...i know its bullshit....i know ur lying.....i just choose to ignore it and move on because i also know that you will never fess up to the truth of it and that you spent the rest of the night trying to figure out how to cover ( Read more... )

so i am ok....i am actually better then ok....other then being a little finacialy behind (nothing new there) i am happy and enjoying life....it has been proved to me time and again that we are together and that he believes it too and that he's not running away...so i shouldnt either....its strange to just be happy....it is, i know, the thing i say ( Read more... )