Im definitely still in love with richard.. he told me he done wanna get with me right now cuz the idea of us being together again means thats it.. its forever.. its kinda scary to admit to that already, but on the other hand i dont wanna wait for him to decide when. I love jayson and care about him but its not the same as richard.. i dont know if i ( Read more... )

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Well, mother is gone.. sister is at my aunts until the semester is over.. i have my cat and jesica adopted a kitten. Jayson is probably giong to go to cali but he thinks we will be able to see eachother ever other week. (he is insane.) I had a mental break down last night, no one could say anything that made me feel good i just bitched about ( Read more... )

So, apparently my mother leaves tomorrow.. I feel so abandoned. I went and did the good bye thing tonight cuz i knew i wouldnt wanna do it tomorrow. It was so weird.. she didnt even tear up. this is the woman that cried when i got my first armpit hair cuz i was "growing up"! so anyway.. i did cry.. yes im admitting it.. but not when she was around ( Read more... )

I cant believe this thing still exists.. i havent checked it in sooooooooooo long! maybe ill start posting again eh. Im going to rent today im so siked! we are going during the time the interpreters will be there so its gonna be amamaizng. I know stacy and janis are going too so ill prolly see them there. then after im going to phx to see jayson.. ( Read more... )

So, last night was fine.. i ended up going over to jacobs.. drank a beer or 2 and smoked the hookah. I invited Jessica over and she was with dani and ended up showing up long enough to have a beer and smoke a lil then they booked.. i felt a lil bad cuz they started whispering abuot what they were going to do with the rest of the night and i wasnt ( Read more... )

So, i realize that i have not used livejournal in a very long time and whne i do i use it as a diary of such so i think i will start to just document all the shitty ornot so shitty emotions i am going through on an almost daily basis.. starting with today ( Read more... )

So.. i havent been on here in forever..

updateing my life.. i met a boy.. turned to an ass.. i met another boy.. turned into a stalker.. i met another boy.. ugly as fuck.. i met another boy.. seems to have a girlfriend.. GAH.. i will never fucking find a man! seriously!

thats my story

So... wilson and i are on a "break" i am not sure what that means exactly other than we arent together.. but nothing has change which is funny. but now i can flirt and not feel bad about it and just kinda do my thing. i am content with that ( Read more... )

My Grandma died one year ago today..its really hard to face that fact ( Read more... )