i think i have become to comfortable being on speaking terms with you...
maybe i like it better when i just cut myself off

im quiting, cold turkey! and thats my new years resolution because god knows i not need to loose anymore weight at this point

ho ho ho

 i was right by your house tonight, thinking to myself "i wonder if he knows im this close"

drove slow, long ride to think

get home to see a msg from you from 15 min earlier "right by your house, are you there?"

by then your home

the gods telling me i shouldnt see you i guess?

 i got the urge to call you...

i wish we could still be friends, you use to be my best =\

 i get happier as the days pass...

at this rate, im gonna explode with rays of fucking sunshine by next week!

i work 4 nights straight then im off for 5, i love my job!

i love my life :)

 talking to you today made me realize how happy ive been without you being in my life.

 u know you saw me

do you look for me like i noticed that you are gone

would you fly to alaska to stop me/.

 the hate and anger have subsided. i realized that i cant truely move on still holding a grudge. remember i was the one who never believed in them. i now can smile and walk away because i gave you everything i had....which may have not been enough if you wanna think of it in terms that it couldnt make it work between us, but i did the best i could ( Read more... )

i found myself at about 3:30 this morning staring wondering how old he could possibly be. ugh im really bad at this guessing game, but lets see.....M.D. so you're older than 30 for sure. hightop converse and a wrinkled lab coat so youre younger than 38.......

hahaha ive got a crush! =

to day i missed you a little bit less...

tomorrow even more :)

 i had another chest crushing moment, but i got through

i live in a world of "i can" and i can get through this

get through this like you never exsisted

but then again, its the only way to get through this