i cant get you out of my mind....this whole it being over for good thing is unreal to me. i dunno if im still in shock but ive been staring at my phone for days waiting for your call ( Read more... )

 just when i think i cant possbily hate you anymore im taken back to that night in your kitchen. i was sitting on your lap and you looked me deep into my eyes and told me that you loved me and asked me to spend the rest of my life with you ( Read more... )

if  my life right now was like my head of hair, you would be the split ends.

everything else is beautiful up until you.

im long overdue for a hair cut

my vision went white, my throat closed up, and i was shaking so much eveytthing i was holding fell to the floor, including myself. it took so much to pull myself out of what i thought to be my first anxiety attack.

but i breathed and breathed and kept telling myself to breathe until it satrted to pass

now im just jittery and sad

another day,  another let down.......

you're pushing me here man, pushing me right over the fucking edge

this time  ill cry alone...

i no longer need your shoulder...and im not just saying that because its not there anymore.

im saying that because i really dont need it.

and the second i start to believe that, i wont have to cry anymore.

al ways up and down...

sometimes i pray to just be down and out

i have a safety net this time

wihtout so much as saying one word, you said everything.

im no stranger to defeat, even less so to heartache.

and as a sign of that tomorrow i will wear all white.

i pour my heart.....tears were flowing

and you skim through in silence

does being part of a loving relationship really take so much work? i mean shouldnt the love put everything all into place or have i been sadly misinformed about how this whole being in love thing works. i mean i thought the whole paradox to this love thing was trying too hard will cause it to slip right through your fingers ( Read more... )