i am made of rubber

right now im smacking my head on the pavment

but i am made of rubber

soon ill be flying high again

dont know what the future has in store for me, but im welcoming it with open arms

ive always been made of rubber

it dawned on me this morning that ive found myself buried alive in an abusive relationship. i guess all the dirt piled on quicker then i was able to let go of the image of "the perfect couple" in my head. ive found myself making excuses for why you cant be the way you use to with me. then i wonder if thats selling my own happiness short for the ( Read more... )

 idont know when or why i fell off your pedistal

but ive dug mysekf out of worse, i have a good shovel by now.

day 1

 drinking to forget my problems yesterday ended up turning into my problem, which in turn ended up with me drinking again today to forget about that new problem i created

mmm am i sensing a problem here?

whatever, ill be okay

im starting FIU spring for my masters :)

its sad when all you have is love because a relationship takes a lot more.

way more.

and whats even more sad is that the love doesnt go away just because everything else needed is lacking.

and that my friends is where i find myself right now, in between a rock and a hard place.

now if i go towards the rock, its gonna be a tough climb. one requiring a ( Read more... )

today marks the 4th anniversy of the worst day of my life..

its been 4 long years since i thought i was rock bottom. and although i still feel as though someone sucker punched me in the gut, ill smile a little bit because i know you're smiling down at me, i hope im still making you proud.

i miss you so much daddy

it was you for sure...

wow, hes a retard

:)

im doing it...

look mommy, no hands

this weekend my gaurdian angel apeared to me....surprisingly he was tom cruise ( Read more... )

you're like the drug that had such an amazng momentary first high followed by the downest down. and ive been going back for more and more, and itching for more, and more, and wanting more and more, doing anything for more and more, hoping to achieve that state of nirvana again. but i need to just come to terms with the harsh reality thatll ill ( Read more... )