Held Far From Me

what was the easy way
i forgot how to exist
forgot to resist
made it hard to leave

ladies night
i'm strings and things
things and rings
make it hard to breathe

a little cold
mixed against welcome
will hell come
make it hard to grieve

until it hurts
live wire held tight
held right
made it hard to leave

So Long and Goodnight

lost finger
lost fist
wasted punch
wasted love

folded hands
folded sheets
wasted nights
wasted love

meant words
meant more
wasted time
wasted love

Stupid Memories

try to put it away
then it rolls back
it's just like that
caught closed trap

no peace in place
the chaos returns
to stay straight
stay off the turns

was it ever easy
or stupid and blind
the very fear
i'm used in my mind

photographs can change
destroyed corrections
don't be cut out
avoid connections

Two Sides

how long would you look in
the silver backed glass
if what you stared at
stared back as you pass

who is the judge
who is the defendant
who is the sheep
who is independent

one of them follows
the other one leads
one of them shatters
the other one bleeds

the sad thing is
they both fall apart

Pardon Me

you try to breakout
get rocked by resistance
beat by the bars but
you doubt their existence

is this illusion
a problem with vision?
it's my delusion
a problem filled prison

barred from the outside
barred from within
someday you'll breakout
someday you'll win

see beyond the bars
to get sight
be beyond the bars
to get right

Favor

leave nothing to remember
so everything is forgotten
but if you've built a past
the plan is spoiled rotten

you can't disappear
there's more to consider
the sweetest demise
leaves a taste more bitter

if they noticed you
and missed you before
if you ceased to exist
they'd miss you much more

Statue

the structure is missing
lost with no landmark
a point to return to
where i left a hand mark

only to touch again
what once was close
hard to get my hands
on what was the most

the skyline is empty
and asks for a giant
watch the horizon
the high-rise defiant

as the monument grows
and dwarfs my size
hang on, hang on
and support the rise

Star Gazer

my eyes let you in
the softest look
my heart the same
the softest crook

you steal from me
i steal from you
what's real to me
is real to you

you steal my gaze
i'm lost and fine
my heart is yours
and yours is mine

you steal from me
i steal from you
what's real to me?
how i feel for you

Stranger

it seems such things never change
always strange when i go out
normals out of my range
always the gain
the stain of tomorrow
when nothing makes sense
thoughts you borrow
not one thing makes sense
dense clouds of doubt
when dense crowds shout
whilst sparse whisper
and those alone
say nothing at all
it's nothing at all
i'm nothing at all

Empty Stomach

the morning after
my stomach turns
through the day
my stomach burns
dehydrated
my stomach's turn

empty middle
my stomach kills
dual groans
my stomach's will
feed myself
my stomach fills