So I am officially (technically) done with my piano studies at Alverno. I don't know what to think of that. Technically I have 6 lessons left, but I will be working on teaching/pedagogy stuff ( Read more... )

feeling much better after a night of restful sleep. however i have been downing coffee all day and am wired. i need to go practice but i have a feeling it will be unhelpful since i am so jittery.

blah.

Oh, and I have a doctors apt next thursday

and then I will be all better.

Haha.

So my recital hearing is next wednesday. I don't feel ready, and if Michael was not going to be there, I'd be ok. But he is, and hes going to know when I make a mistake. I am not comfortable playing for him. I feel like I am extremely not ready.

Panic

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I am having a very hard time right now. I feel so unaccepted and unwanted. I feel like I don't belong here when I should feel on top of the world. I feel like I am being bypassed - like everyone is better than me and smarter than me. I feel like I'm a joke. Like they're just letting me get so far until finally they'll say, you don't belong, you ( Read more... )

I really love that alverno's idea of paying a student for taking time out of their ungodly busy schedule to go play piano for a cocktail party off campus for an hour and a half is giving them a gift card to alverno's bookstore which will mostlikely be a 10 dollar gift card.

The stress of school has already hit me. I am sinking already. The second week of school ( Read more... )

Moving tomorrow!!! No more Riverwest!!!
So excited to be out of here and not have to be worried to leave at night or get home late from work.
The end.

Its a sad day when you can't walk to and from your car to your apartment. When people feel like they can violate you, just because. When you don't feel safe even in your home. When you can't go for a walk in your neighborhood. When peace doesn't exist in the world, from as far away as across the world, to as near as your doorstep. When the news ( Read more... )

The semester is ending and for some reason I am feeling extremely down still. I don't know why. I think it is the uncertainty of what will happen next. Im moving again, and I don't know where to, I need to find a second job but I don't know where... I have so much changing when all I want to do is relax... And I realized just this week how ( Read more... )