this is the worst thanksgiving so far.
rob almost broke up with me. He
told me he is sick of feeling not
good enough and sick of fighthing
and arguing. I almost left, but i
knew that would make it worse.
So i just cried. He said he didnt
know what to do. He felt depressed
and not happy with us. He wanted
to go on a break. a "mutual agreement".
i cried ( Read more... )

i feel shattered almost.
like i have everything i need
but yet there is still something
that is making me what something else.
like i need more. like what i
have is not enough.
help !

my dad is in the hospital.
it happened yesterday.
my mom walked in when
she was supposed to be
at work. I asked her why she's
home and she said dad
was in the hospital. He fell
off a ladder at my grandma's
apartment. 2 stories. He broke
his ankle in 6 different places
and fractured his back. I went
to visit him and he was puking
from the morphine. He ( Read more... )

me and rob's two years was
yesterday. He gave me a promise
ring. i've never seen him so nervous
in his whole life, it was so cute <3
i dont even care that its a $7 clairs
ring that makes my finger green.
i dont care. i love him and i dont
wany anyone else <3

well today was a disaster.
i dont know if its just me,
but girls seriously LOVE
drama. They love to start it,
they love to talk about others,
and they love to think they are
big and bad and are better than
everyone. I'd rather hang out
with guys because they are
so carefree and fun. i guess
i just never got to thank all
my guy friends <3 I love you all <3

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i wake up. i still havent got my period.
no, im not pregnant. i haven't
even had sex yet. I look in the mirror,
i see my face isnt doing much better.
i rememeber my dream, we were all
trying to escape from this house. The
house across the street from mine.
Everyone is sitting down now and kyle
tosses me in the air and i almost fall.
I wake u to the sound ( Read more... )

today was so long. its hard
to find a job. I've been filling
out applications left and right
and still no phone call. i just
need a job. than i just wanted
to cuddle. im not in the best
mood, so cuddling is the o
only thing i want to do right now,
but it seemed like rob's dad would
NOT leave us alone today. im not
trying to be mean, i just wanted
some alone ( Read more... )

that night. our first kiss. yes, the one where
i missed. I walked home from her house,
crying. looking up at the street light as
the snow fell down. I walked alone,
because i said i didnt want you to walk
me home. Tonight, same house. Two years later.
You took my hand, held me close and walked me
home. safe. I looked up at the streetlight and
i smiled. ( Read more... )

well last night i didn't sleep
at all. I woke up twice in
the middle of the night.
Once at 12 and the other
at 3am. The second time
mom came into the bathroom
because i was over the toliet
about to throw up. I hate that feeling
so much, but she is the best nurse
ever <3 she put a cold washcloth
over my head and back and it made me
so relaxed. I than feel ( Read more... )

Can anyone tell me
why life is so messed
up? this world is crazy.
i went to school today
and people were bitching
and arguing. Teachers were
crabby. Deans were assholes,
but thats everyday. Friends were
annoyed. Rob was crabby. It was
like everyone was in a bad mood
for no reason. I dont know.
hopefully tonight is better,
movie night at matt's.
we are watching ( Read more... )