i read laura's entry and it almost emphasizes how i feel this morning.  I couldn't pull myself out of bed this morning.  then i get out of the shower late. my mom was sick so i went into work late so that she could take her medicine.

i feel tired
worn out.
and i just hope 2009 starts out differently....

please....

How sometimes how hard life can be ( Read more... )

In 3 days, hopefully, I will be sitting on a sunny beach in Miami and will be blissful.

And Faye better not fuck with that.

Thanks, God.

today is my sister's birthday.  she would have been 40 today, but she's not here.  some days are easier than others.  some really aren't that easy at all ( Read more... )

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She's my sister.  I can't believe she isn't here.  She passed away tonight after I got out of work. We all felt it today.  I spent the whole afternoon with her and I was happy with my visit.  It was quiet, just me and my mom and we watched soap operas and yeah ( Read more... )

I found out Friday morning that my sister  is terminally ill with cancer.  My family has come together for this and yeah... we're all trying to be strong.  All the fighting has stopped.  There is this weird peace treaty that has emerged.  I am also talking to my brother now.  I've been spending between 8 and 10 hours at the hospital every day.  I'm ( Read more... )

I might have a job!!!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

"And if I die tonight, at least I did what I wanted to do... Tell me how about you ( Read more... )

Didn't make it to the doublethink show.  No one to go with and I ended up falling asleep and feeling crappy when I woke up.   Ended up going to the bowling alley with Shina and Carrie.  Saturday was good.  Went shopping with Andria which made up for stuff.  Went out to dinner for my mom's bday and that was horrible.  The waitress tried to stiff us ( Read more... )