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The 12 Steps

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• Step 1 - We admitted we were powerless over our addiction - that our lives had become unmanageable 
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I am in so much pain today I want to go to the ER.  I cannot go to the doctor because I do not have 20 dollars copay in my bank account.  I have nothing, and cannot pay my medical bills.   Meanwhile I've provided you insurance for five years.  you have provided me nothing.  You say yes, but I have occasionally paid the premiums.  So what?  First ( Read more... )

Sitting here ruminating on my five years with J.  99% has been sheer hell, between hospital visits for alcohol poisoning and other things.  He refuses to go back to rehab.  When I called him this morning he was 'gone' that way and then three hours later still pretty much soaked.  He 'generously' gave me 100 dollars because I was bouncing at the ( Read more... )

Sleep late, nobody cares what time it is ( Read more... )

I knew your eyes by heart after the very first reading ( Read more... )

We got liberal again today.  I had so many jobs at home I had to come straight to BC instead of going to wp so joe would fill my gas tank.  Joe was very hostile about it because in the middle of some jobs I fell asleep and didn't wake up til 3 pm and  hadn't called him until then so he was waiting for me all day.  He's got a right to be pissed.  My ( Read more... )

I woke up a little past four and decided to get up instead of laying in bed missing everything.  I had a wild night.  I lived at least three full lifetimes I remember clearly.  I was shown that life really is putting on reality glasses and going into the illusion.  I fell in love and had children and heartache and came back together with my husband ( Read more... )

Are you tired of being a slave to a job where your money goes to wars and little 'entertainments' you work so hard to get?  I was thinking today about my life.  My childhood was sublime.  My teenage years were horrific.  My twenties were superb.  My thirties, at 33 to be exact, everything went to shit in a handbasket because of uncontrolled, stupid ( Read more... )

I would like to be able to say that I could accept organized religion.  But I can't.  It would be a lie.  I have lots feelings roiling around inside right now about the Church.  I have often said that Mormonism has more 'rights' than wrongs when compared with other religions.  But I wonder if this isn't because Joseph Smith based it on Masonry, ( Read more... )