in the past three months so many changes have occurred, home is completely different and doesnt even feel like home anymore. i love school and my apt more than ever and after three years on and off it seems were just platonic now? Remember how i said i didnt like change... well theres no avoiding it :/ not like i didnt know that. It's just been a ( Read more... )

Today was the first day i have actually felt like my old self in a really long time. I was in such a great mood today without anyone needing to cheer me up. I was fully happy and carefree and i love it, nothing could get me down.

It's exactly what i needed. Don't get me wrong its not like i'm super depressed all the time, but its just that i've ( Read more... )

schools out and im finally home, and it has been so great being home and seeing friends but for some reason i find myself pretty down. It all hit me the other night, im not as happy as i'd like to be. I've dug myself into such a deep hole in so many different catagories of my life. I know i will be hurt in the end. Alot of these little things will ( Read more... )

i've let my worries go about certain things and honestly i have to say life has been so much better :)

school starts on tuesday and i so dont wanna go back, i want summer to come tomorrow! <3

its safe to say, home has never felt better.

I'm just gonna go with it and see what happens. I'm done trying to push things to get them my way. I'm letting them come to me. Maybe this time will be different? <3

i cant even describe how much i just love being home :) i know i have to go back to school by monday and it slightly makes me sad and scared. i shouldnt be scared but last semester was so intense, that i was at the point of a nervous breakdown almost every week. It was to the point that i didnt even know who i was, i was miserable because i push ( Read more... )

*so 19th birthday...completely uneventful and slightly depressing.

*right now current state of mind, stressing out beyond belief and not feeling like myself at all.

*i want it to be december 14th already so i can be completely done with school til mid january! <3

Sometimes it just takes on person to make you want to change. dorky as it sounds, i went to my advisement meeting on friday with the head of bio department and i scared as all hell thinking he'd tell me i couldn't be a bio major since my gpa is a little low.  So he's letting me retake a class and i just have to do decently well to be able to ( Read more... )

so im in a funk, and i really need to get out of it.
i need to be happy again. <3