i'm finally peaking and it's great. i feel fantastic right now, despite that it's the first day of class returning from break. i keep looking at my psych binder because i really should read the 15 pages i'm suppose to for tomorrow. just don't feel like it! it was really nice out today. sunny and fiddy-fahve ( Read more... )

this was a good weekend. regan picked deryk, lindsay, and i up from their apartment and started the horrifically long road home. shane and i went to deryk's mom's the next day for a little, watched joey get a tarot reading. it was pretty interesting. attempted to bowl at a few seperate locations. 3 words: fuck league nights. more shane. really sick ( Read more... )

i hung out with a 3rd grader 2 days ago. and i will tell you right now that she has been through more pain and neglect in 9 years than i have in almost 19.  it's so unfair. she showed me her favorite songs on the disney channel soundtrack and her new limited too outfits. and we played hangman on the computer, and i showed her how to make shag ( Read more... )

i have a job now in the occupational therapy office. 8 dollars an hour to start. probably 10 next year. which is saa-weeet. finally. i can start looking at freepeople.com again. it's been forever. i also opened a savings account and i'm going to put a certain amount of money from my paychecks into it. that way, i'll have money when i get an ( Read more... )

it's 10:20 a.m. and i have class at eleven. latest class of the week! i'd rather just not do half of the things i need to do today. like go to lab. wish it was tomorrow already. i'm still such an infatuated little 5 year old. it's pathetic. kinda love it though ( Read more... )

i'm back at school. hoorah. took forever to unpack as expected. my favorite part was scraping the mold out of our fridge which unexpectadly formed over the past month. (*fail) it doesn't make sense considering we scrubbed it down. i guess it's because they made us turn them off. whatever. i have class tomorrow. it's really weird. i'm also locked ( Read more... )

everyday gets harder and harder to make it through. i can't figure this thing out. i'm getting older...things aren't funny the way they were. i'm bored. and constantly looking for something to give me a thrill, to shake me until i snap out of this. i really wish this wasn't happening. because it kills me. it kills me to sit there blankly and not ( Read more... )

i need to stop needing. you see?

if there's one thing i'd change about myself, i'd change the fact that my mind can't stay in one place for a second. especially when it is a good place. a place i want to be. out of no where i just hit these bottoms and i don't understand where they come from. the ups and the downs are just so drastic and i want to be somewhere in the middle for a ( Read more... )

i just came back yesterday and i'm ready to go home again. i feel obligated to be at my house during the christmas season. so my mom can force me to listen to christmas music 24 hours a day, and i can watch my dad during his annual routine of putting together his train set. 10 days between now and then. i'm just so over this semester. like really. ( Read more... )