are running through the back of my memory

some day, everything's gonna be different

mind has been changed. we're going to the summercamp festival. the flaming lips, moe., lotus, the roots...etc. what more can you ask for?

17 hour drive to IL hahahah it'll be amazing. i seriously cannot wait. highlight of my summer.

1. go to bonnaroo the summercamp festival this summer
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21. go to bonnaroo eventually

list of random things to accomplish:
1. go to bonnaroo this summer
2. buy colored pens
3. find the northern lights
4. take vitamins every day
5. see lotus live [jazz cafe?]
6. blow glass
7. finish knitting this damn scarf
8. jump out of an airplane
9. go to india
10. get more tattoos
11. pay attention
12. get rid of anxiety
13. make $
14. lighten up
15. snowboard
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i can't make this void permanently go away. there's always something that temporarily patches up the hole, sews me up. and i think i'm better. like a pair of torn jeans. i seek these opportunities out, focusing on the small picture, the easy fix, and not the big one. the more imporant one. but eventually it doesn't mask the guilt, or the sadness,  ( Read more... )

i have not met one person of substance since i've been here. every time i think someone is somewhat interesting, i quickly find out that they are dull and predictable. everyone's idea of fun is, "let's go to the nearest USP frat house and get sloshed!" or "let's eat a ton of acid before every move we make!" or "let's go to the nearest USP frat ( Read more... )

halloween was a bit of a disappointment this year. i don't know what it is about fall, but i feel as content as i am capable of being. i like how festive everything is, and just the overall scenery. i don't think people realize my level of craziness when it comes to holidays. especially halloween. followed by christmas. but i must carve pumpkins. i ( Read more... )

impulsive. i'm not this in any sense of the word. and it's actually funny because shane is quite possibly the most impulsive person i've ever met. and sometimes i wish i could just literally throw my cellphone out the window of a 12 story building to see what happens. or skip an entire week of classes to randomly to go somewhere new and exciting. ( Read more... )