FUCK IT! I'M FUCKIN DONE WITH THIS SHIT. MY COMPUTER IS A FUCKIN PIECE OF FUCKIN SHIT. I JUST LOST ANOTHER EXTREMELY IMPORTANT JOURNAL ENTRY! I FUCKIN CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. I'M FUCKIN DONE!!!

I'm so fuckin pissed right now! I was writing this awesome entry when all of the sudden my computer freezes and i had to fuckin shut it down!! THIS MOTHER FUCKIN COMPUTER! I HOPE IT FUCKIN BLOWS UP! I wish I could remember exactly what I wrote. I was almost done with it, and I was so proud of it. Then the fuckin piece of shit computer has to fuck ( Read more... )

A few days ago, Sam invited me to go to the Apostasy concert with her in March. At first I was like yea I'll go, it will be fun. But after thinking about it for a little bit, I realized that I shouldn't go. I mean I want to go, it's just I don't fit in. I'm not a part of any kind of "goth", or "punk" group (I know apostasy is not a "punk" type of ( Read more... )

I'm doing everything wrong. Flirty with Kyle and being almost all over him won't make me feel any better about myself. So then why do I do it? Why do I do this to myself? Am I that lonely and desperate? He's a senior, I'm a self concious freshman. I'm not supposed to be hanging out with him (according to my sister but that is a long story). Maybe I ( Read more... )

I'm just entirely the most stupid person I know. This morning in skool before first block started, guess what I did in skool? I cried! I know right, wut the fuck?! I don't even think I can begin to explain why. There is this situation between my older sister and Brian (another one that apranelty i didn't and still don't know about). Klye knows it ( Read more... )

Today, I'm not sure what is wrong with me. Something just doesn't feel right and I can't put my finger on it. It's weird because I have never felt this way before, like i don't feel like talking with Jon tonight which is extrememly odd because I look forward to talking with him everynight. Maybe I'm getting bored of him. I mean i haven't met him ( Read more... )

Today, I'm not sure what is wrong with me. Something just doesn't feel right and I can't put my finger on it. It's weird because I have never felt this way before, like i don't feel like talking with Jon tonight which is extrememly odd because I look forward to talking with him everynight. Maybe I'm getting bored of him. I mean i haven't met him ( Read more... )

I have decided that I don't have any real friends. I mean don't get me wrong I talk with a ton of people but it's like they are aquaintances or not so close friends. I do have a few REALLY good friends, but I'm talking about best friends. Like Guav and Cap. Or Rachel and Caitlyn. I wish I could have a friendship with some one like theirs. I don't ( Read more... )

My night....as usual mostly eventful. Mi madre surprised me tonight by taking me to the movies to see "Hide and Seek" I know i'm a loser going with my mom. fuck that I don't care I had fun! I mean i also couldn't get into an R rated movie with out her. But I really enjoyed "Hide and Seek". I can't really describe it because I don't want to give it ( Read more... )

My bad mood is back again ( Read more... )