I had a day yesterday. And today i had a day. Its been real, really incredibly lame. I felt like quitting my job today. The job that i was expecting i would love. Working at the bike shop is ideal, except i work with a few people that are completely wound up. In the end of the day what does it all matter. I want to be able to say i had the most fun ( Read more... )

i haven't looked at live journal in a long time, some part of it makes me sad. It looks like everyone i once knew that used it has also abandoned it like crummy vcr tapes. I cant remember if LJ was pre myspace, either way they both seem dead now. I wish my keyboard did have a backspace key, but i couldn't handle misspelled words. I am hear because ( Read more... )

ever herd anything along the lines of, pain exists to make the good times sweeter? maybe it really goes the other way around. happiness exists to make the pain stronger. prolly not. there is no good and evil force in the universe, its just you. I have decided 99% of the time you determine your own level of happiness and pain. The other 1% can be ( Read more... )

a coffee machine, that has an alarm. it would be better then my regular alarm and my drip coffee. dont make fun of my drip coffee. where shall i ride after work? eureka, highland, old santa cruzhw, bear creek? back home on summit? down mt charlie? anyways my leash is short and i need to get back to my slave work at 4.

I have three races this month. I can't wait to feel my body to burn. Im looking forward to being a cat3. and cyclocross this year should be painful. I don't have alot of say right now. I had a really good cup of coffee and some oat meal,and since the tour is over i don't really have anything to occupy my morning. I think I will go to my grandmas ( Read more... )

26" bmx is super rad. i hope i read this in the future and don't understand it.

i had a good time fucking, the rest was sort of bullshit. I'm glad i got one of my favorite pairs of jeans back from her house. probably the best way disassociation i could of asked for. i learned if i go to work it keeps my mind form swarming in negativity. I worked for a few days strait and that was all i needed. i want some new tattoos, should i ( Read more... )

i met a girl from sf. she liked me and i liked her from back in the day. what would you say if some one read your journal?

i have more to say, im not done. i miss winter, not so sure i like summer anymore. just because when i was a kid i skeeted over summer its ingrained into my brain to want it. i miss cyclocross. freezing my balls off hanging out with my family driving to the city. driving back from the race. i miss feeling ashamed of myself after not placing or ( Read more... )

my life for the last month or so seems like one big trip. i have slent alot of time in san francisco and my home doesnt really feel like home anymore. The only thing thats keeping me tied down to this area right now are the poeple i love and the hills. I dont know where i would ride in sf. i just got on a local team in santa cruz. bike trip. Iv ( Read more... )