I have ONE week to be were I want to be, I can handle this pressure! I know I am going to let myself down because I have been so lazy and out of control. I HATE this state I am in....grrr it's so frustrating ( Read more... )

Feeling...unworthy, un-important, undeserving ( Read more... )

Holy crap I just do NOT have the time to write in here...I hate this busy life of mine! I miss reading all my *friends* journals too :( I am not a very good lj friend....sorry ( Read more... )

I did get a really nice outfit from the Gap...a skirt, a nice tank top and a black cotton jacket...but it just isn't enough, I want more...:( But I just don't have the $$ right now to be having these shopping sprees! Oh well maybe next pay cheque, I have been working enough frigging hours so I should be able to spend some of MY hard earned cash ( Read more... )

high STRESS level = no food

That is about all that is good right now...I'm off to bed :(

It is non stop CRAP for us lately...life is sucking! My daughter is sick AGAIN, I have been working non stop, the baby is teething and not sleeping very well and my hubby just got called out of town to deal with a "crisis" with his work!! LEAVING ME ALONE TO DEAL WITH IT ALL :( There is a ton of things that have happened I just don't feel like ( Read more... )

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Neglect...well not really just too busy ( Read more... )

WOW a year has gone by already! On March 24th my babe had her 1st birthday! We got together with my adopted parents (just so no one will be confused) for dinner and her 1st birthday cake! She loved it ( Read more... )

I went out and bought a book today, not the one I wanted but nevertheless a book on adoption reunions and beyond. This is a "forbidden place" for me because I don't want to 'feel' or allow myself to be emotional but I have this need to know that I am normal and that what I am going thru or putting off going thru is all ok! I have yet to deal with ( Read more... )